Weight Gain
Does anyone else have an Intrathecal Pain Pump? If so, can you e-mail me at [email protected]. I haven't written lately, but lurk all the time. I just had my 2 year anniversary with a GREAT weight loss success until now. I'm very frustrating. Back in October I ended up in the hospital with acute pancreatitis. I spent 9 days or so in the hospital and when I came home my weight was the lowest at 161. I looked horrible. I'm 5'10" and shouldn't be that thin. I was wearing a 6 and sometimes an 8. Even a 4 once........Anyway I couldn't gain weight, so I started eating things that I shouldn't eat and weight finally started coming on. My doctor wanted me at 185, which I felt was too heavy. I felt really good at 172, but by that time I was addicted to Ghiradelli chocolates at night before bed. First it started with just 2 then 3 then, well I'm out of control now. I had a total knee replacement a year ago April and that set me back as well. Then a small car accident that has caused soo much back pain is horrible. I started on pain medication. First Vicodin, then muscle relaxers. I had epidurals and some other time of shots (I can't remember), anyway nothing helped. My specialist sent me to a specialist and he ordered some heavy duty drugs. I was taking them like candy. I think I liked the feeling, plus it kinda helped with the back pain (I'm being honest here). I ended up with a Intrathecal Pain Pump implanted on my right side of my abdomen about 4 weeks ago. I have a HUGE area of my stomach that now sticks out and am very upset about that. The doctor has been increasing the medicine in my pump every Wednesday. Last Wednesday he told me to stop my pain medication over the next few days, which I have done. I'm having a little dizzy stuff going on, but it's tolerable. Anyway, I weighed this morning and I am now 188.5. That is ridiculous! I am starving all the time. Can't seem to control what I eat. I feel like I am retaining water. (Hands are tight etc.) My breasts are extremely tender (which they NEVER are). Nope not pregnant! Oh I'm also 46, forgot to mention that one. I don't really eat a lot of bad things. I did have 2 Ghiradelli candies last night, but only 2. Woke up this morning at had gained 1/2 a lb. The day before that gained 2 lbs. I had to go up to a size 12 - 14 due to the weight gain and the huge bump in my tummy. I can't seem to think straight or do the right things. I am supposed to take it easy for 4 - 6 weeks after surgery, but I didn't really. My back hurts and I want to take some medicine soooo bad, but I don't want to give in. I will get another increase on Wednesday and we will see what the doctor says from there. I also have thyroid cancer as of 2004. The doctor told me a few months ago that there is still some cancer someplace in my body but they can't find it. They are sending me back to UCSF for a consultation. I've had a lot on my plate, not to mention SEVERE financial problems. I have creditors calling all day long. I know there numbers now and don't answer the phone. I make payment arrangements with just about everyone possible. We are only a half month past due on our house payment and they are already using the word Foreclosure. One of our "WONDERFUL" members was soo kind as to send me 2 HUGE jugs of protein powder because I posted that I couldn't afford to buy any. That was the sweetest thing anyone had ever done for me. I suffer from SEVERE panic/anxiety disorder with chronic depression. Sometimes I stay in bed for a day or two and do nothing but sleep or watch tv. I can't get up. I can't get dressed. It's horrible. I have been on social security disability for this problem since 2005. Yes I am seeing a psychologist and a psychiatrist. I just started with the therapist and I love her. I feel very comfortable with her. Anyway, my original question was about the pump, but I guess I needed to get some things off of my chest as well. I don't want to become fat again. I feel huge. Everyone tells me that this is the best that I have looked since surgery, but I don't feel that way. I feel obese. I think I will print out this post and take it to my therapist on Friday, so she can see what I am feeling as well. Good idea huh? Anyway, today I am only drinking fluids, no food and see if I can get back on track. Sorry this was soo long, but I really needed someone to talk to and nobody else seems to understand. Any idea, suggestions would be appreciated. I love you guys and don't know what I would ever do without every single one of you.
Your Friend,
*Carol*
Your Friend,
*Carol*
Hi,
Wow, you do have alot going on. There seems to be alot of factors in your life that can cause weight gain such as stress, empty calories (sugar stuff), possible side affects from meds, etc. I had the same problem initially. I got too thin, then ate alot of bad stuff to gain and it worked. I had gone through some serious pain issues and was self medicating before got the right meds. It all came to a head when I spent four days in the hospital. I am off all the pain meds. My pain is tolerable and I am feeling much better. I am facing gallbladder surgery, but that's ok. The good news, the tool we have to lose still works when used properly.
Starving will make you fat. Your body will go into survival mode to get the nutriants it needs inj a bad unhealthy way. Seeing a nutritionist may be wise to get you back into eating healthy. The internet is also a good resource and is free. I feel your stress levels and you need to find a way to healthily relieve some of that stress.
We, as women tend to fall on chocolate. In itself, is not bad. As you know, anything too much can be.
I understand financial problems. There are people who can help you with that. Back on track so to speak., like Consumer Credit Councelling. I wish I had all the answers. One thing at a time is what I would do. Huuuuuugzzzzz
Paula
Wow, you do have alot going on. There seems to be alot of factors in your life that can cause weight gain such as stress, empty calories (sugar stuff), possible side affects from meds, etc. I had the same problem initially. I got too thin, then ate alot of bad stuff to gain and it worked. I had gone through some serious pain issues and was self medicating before got the right meds. It all came to a head when I spent four days in the hospital. I am off all the pain meds. My pain is tolerable and I am feeling much better. I am facing gallbladder surgery, but that's ok. The good news, the tool we have to lose still works when used properly.
Starving will make you fat. Your body will go into survival mode to get the nutriants it needs inj a bad unhealthy way. Seeing a nutritionist may be wise to get you back into eating healthy. The internet is also a good resource and is free. I feel your stress levels and you need to find a way to healthily relieve some of that stress.
We, as women tend to fall on chocolate. In itself, is not bad. As you know, anything too much can be.
I understand financial problems. There are people who can help you with that. Back on track so to speak., like Consumer Credit Councelling. I wish I had all the answers. One thing at a time is what I would do. Huuuuuugzzzzz
Paula
Hi Paula,
It was amazing after posting my message that within about 45 minutes I had this calm feeling. Guess I did the right thing posting, I feel much better. Nothing has improved...LOL, but I do feel better. Credit counseling won't help. It's not credit card debt. It's just your old household bills that are getting to us. My husband is self employed and business has just dropped this year. It actually starting picking up last week. We own a carpet cleaning company. He is the sole operator, so we depend on others needing cleaning, but this year it seems that people had other ideas for their money. Anyway, I wanted to thank you soo much for posting a reply. It made me feel much better. And if there is anything that I can do to make your surgery go easier, let me know. I'll be here for you.
Hugs,
*Carol*
It was amazing after posting my message that within about 45 minutes I had this calm feeling. Guess I did the right thing posting, I feel much better. Nothing has improved...LOL, but I do feel better. Credit counseling won't help. It's not credit card debt. It's just your old household bills that are getting to us. My husband is self employed and business has just dropped this year. It actually starting picking up last week. We own a carpet cleaning company. He is the sole operator, so we depend on others needing cleaning, but this year it seems that people had other ideas for their money. Anyway, I wanted to thank you soo much for posting a reply. It made me feel much better. And if there is anything that I can do to make your surgery go easier, let me know. I'll be here for you.
Hugs,
*Carol*
I needed to vent yesterday and didn't have the time to take time to go back to view grammar etc.
Maybe I will learn next time.
I've always felt so comfortable here because everyone is always so kind and courteous.
I just don't feel that relief today as I did yesterday after posting.
It's very sad to have to say that!
Going back reading my post I see that it is quite long and understand the frustrating, but you ALL must understand mine as well!
Maybe I will learn next time.
I've always felt so comfortable here because everyone is always so kind and courteous.
I just don't feel that relief today as I did yesterday after posting.
It's very sad to have to say that!
Going back reading my post I see that it is quite long and understand the frustrating, but you ALL must understand mine as well!
Thanks Paula for your caring and understanding. I'm going crazy with this weight gain and now sure what to do about it. I just feel soo swollen all over and with my breasts being tender??? It's really weird.
I see the implant doctor on Thursday and will discuss the weight gain with him and see what he says. I've been trying to watch what I eat, but I'm starving ALL the time now and that's just not normal.
We have ALL come so far........I don't want to be fat EVER again!
Hugs,
*Carol*
I see the implant doctor on Thursday and will discuss the weight gain with him and see what he says. I've been trying to watch what I eat, but I'm starving ALL the time now and that's just not normal.
We have ALL come so far........I don't want to be fat EVER again!
Hugs,
*Carol*
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