I'm discouraged, really down

Oh my gosh, is it something in the air.  I am also struggling and down because I had a weight gain.  As Ruth said we can do this...we've done it before we just need to regroup and take charge of our lives, minds and bodies.

Peace and Love to All,

Genie

I am sooo very glad I logged in today...  I have not been on the boards in over a year, I had surgery in Nov 2006, I got down to 137 (I am 5'7") my goal was 142..  I stayed around 140 for a year, then my job was deleted, I had to change positions and step down from management.  My husband has been very ill, we have had to travel to a different state to try a treatment only offered in Texas or Russia (we live in Illinois) and my son first was having drug problems, then had a child with a girl he doesn't even talk to any more.  Court battles for visitation, all kinds of things...  I started sneaking "comfort" food..  Unfortunately, I do not dump, and I can eat sugar and carbs much easier than meat...  I got back up to 176!!!  Then my blood sugars started rising, (I had beat diabetes with this weight loss..).  I talked to my Dr as I was on an antidepressant, and she felt that could contribute to the weight loss, I changed to Wellbutrin, and lost 13 pounds in 6 weeks, unfortunately, I am stuck at 163 pounds for 2 months now, I need to get the other 20 off, but keep "sneaking food" like no one will notice!

I think a lot of us are probably in this same position, and it feels good to know others are here also, maytbe if we group together, and pray for each other, vent to each other, and support each other, we can all get past this and back on the right track!

I don't know why we participate in this self destructive behavior, but I know I am ready to try and get back on track (of course, there is a bowl of m & m's on my table, I should go throw it in the garbage right now while I am feeling strong from reading these posts!

Hang in there, and know that Jesus doesn't make any junk, so no matter what others say about you, you are precious in His eyes, and worth more than you can imagine!

God Bless,

Sandy

you are not alone trust me. i had rny in 07/03 and lost 150lbs. since then and up to now, i have gained about 50 back. it sucks. i wish i could get the motivation to get the weight off again. and like you, i can eat cookies, even if they make me dump and get sick. its a comfort food and i have went back to comfort food. i have returned back to the wls boards to see if i can get the motivation back to get off my a** and get things right with me again. hope this helps, it sure helped me to say it.

Hi Kathy,

I don't have anything new to add that hasn't already been said....just wanted to let you I'm thinking about you and wishing you the best in getting things back under control.  I'm also up 20 pounds from my lowest and feel the pain you're going through.  Keep coming back to the boards for support and encouragement.  I don't post a lot but do try and check in to read posts at least a couple of times a week.  Take care hon!

Mary Ellen

Wow!!!!  I am right there with all of you.  I thought I was alone.  And I too, haven't been on the boards lately but find I better get back here. 
This is some journey.  We have to stop this upward slide.  I am so sick over it.
I find I don't want to go in public again because I don't want people to point and say they knew I wouldn't do it.  And I know if they don't say it to my face I know they are thinking it.  UGH!!!!
Plus I never want to be where I was before surgery so why do I continue to binge eat and sneak eat?????
We all need to encourage each other.
good luck.  we will try.

I can not believe I have not been on the boards for a long time either and came back today to get motivated.  Had RNY June 2004.  Lost 140 pounds went from 313 to 170.  Felt terrific and could do anything, anytime and enjoyed it.  Went from size 24 to 14.  But have been gaining for about the last year and can't gedt motivated to stop the snacking.  I work to exercise and would rather not do anything.  Have gained 50 pounds since my low.  I would be happy to be anything under 200 so starting today I am going to work at protein and cut the carbs and get exercise everyday.  If I say it here I WILL do it.  I am 64 years old so know it will be hard but I will do it.  Any help with motivation or receipes will be really helpful.
Thank you,  Dorothy  

I am so glad I found this post. I can so relate to what everyone is saying. Losing the weight was easy, keeping it off is the hardest challenge I've ever faced. Every time I put on a pair of pants and they are tight I get so annoyed with myself. I know what i'm doing wrong and I know what to do to get back on track yet I am not doing it. I run a support group and I am a role model so I need to stay healthy, stay fit and stay thin. My BMI is now at the "overweight" stage. My weight went from 127 at the lowest to where it is now about 141-142. I am proud that I lost over 80 lbs. I need to lost 5 lbs to feel better about myself. RNY helped me achieve a normal weight and I want to maintain it. Maybe we can all help each other! Send your advice and suggestions. Thanks for listening.

Do not feel alone. for I deal with the same issue as you. I also had my rny in feb 04,  I was doing quite well until maybe jan of this year. and yes those darn cookies will do it. I was wearing a size 4 until this year now the size 8 I'm having a hard time getting into them. there are many times I feel so alone. I have no friends in this city that I'm in. I just go out to the store and pay some bills when I have to but other than that I speak to no one other then my spouse. My children are in other city. so I started to eat as comfort and stop excersing just because.
I had my rny in feb 2004
started out at 217
got down to 117 stayed at 125 for a long time and felt great there.
I'm 5'2"
53 years

I too need some support.