Friday Cafe and Cardio.

Come on and post... accountability... even if it is not so good - seeing it on the screen helps me to do better then next day or the next meal..  I am a visual person and when I had to write it down that I ate 2/3 of  a 326 gr bag of chocolate chips in one day...( yes -2/3 of 11.5oz bag )  I ate equivalent of 2 large (100 gr each) chocolate bars in one day... over 1000 calories just in chocolate.

Did I dumped ? no - because I ate it slowly - during one whole day... together with other foods.,.. did I get RH - no - because I ate it all the time - keeping my BS relatively elevated and very stable... and at the end of the day I had dinner - and then LNS- nuts  probably another 500-1000 cal worth. So what?  I had an off day...I was on additional steroids...and if not for my RNY - I probably would eat 3-4 x as much ....

you know how many chocolate chips a person can eat 2-3 at a time?  200 gr worth...over 1000 calories worth... even with RNY , dumping and severe RH.. . But it is done and over.. and I am OK. I am up 1 lb - but that will be gone in a few days... I know that one day of overeating did not made me gain 1 lb of fat...it is carb reload and water gain.. so back to regular programing... 

today: 

coffee + Miralax, +more coffee  and yes - you guessed - coffee.. (it is cold and dreary in SC today - 67 - August 1st? WTF?  )

2 HB eggs, 1/2 avocado, cucumber salad

protein cookies or protein shake

dinner: baked chicken with some veggies.

LNS: nuts...

exercise: housework = and yoga later today.

  And for the record: I am wearing my size 6 jeans capris (Talbot - hand me down)  yea *****es.... they fit and I even considered a belt- but decided that since the hips fit good.. they should stay on and I don't need extra pressure in my waist.  

Great news on the size 6 jeans, H.a.l.a.!  You GO girl!!!  I'm still lurking from time to time, but still fixated on MFP and trying to meet my macros, which I almost never do, but I'm not sweating it.  I'm still between 160-163, and I do want to eventually get to around 150, but I'm just taking my time and enjoying my summer (and watermelon YUM).  I have days that I go wayyyy over my 1718 cal budget, but I'm always true to my exercise, even with this bad back of mine.  If I can only do 10mins, then it's 10mins, but at least I've done something.

I'm not looking for the same number on the scale, and I do weigh daily...religiously.  I just try to maintain a weight range, and right now it's 160-165.  I am comfortable in the fact that 14yrs ago I weighed 344 lbs, and I have maintained over 100 lbs loss for all these years, even with my 71 lb regain which is now history.  I am not willing to give in to fat anymore, and will fight to the death to prevent becoming the person I used to be.  This is how it works for me, and I will continue in this never-ending struggle because that's just what it is...never-ending.  We will always have our "good " days and "bad" days, but in the end, diligence is the key to maintenance and success.

Glad to see you ... now I am hovering around 163... the magic number.. I would like to get under 160.. but I will get there - when I get there... one day this week I saw 166 - but hat was right after iron infusion and steroids.. and it lasted less than a day... but 163 - is magic number.. my body showed me 162.5 one day ..for maybe 5 min.. when I stepped on the sacle again - it was back to 163... but I know I will get there.. Yoga will help.. 

I do surprise people- with 5' 4" - 163 and I can wear size 6.. (not all of them - but some.. and not the top 6's).  

3 months ago I bought size 10 capris - (normally was wearing size 8) to have a comfortable pair on days that is really hot and my belly may be swollen.  I did not even put it on one time... ugh.. but that is OK.  They will go into: "too big for me now" pile ... 

I am a realist -  I know that in a few years I may find myself back to 8's or even 10's.....so I will keep some clothes that big.  Some nice and comfortable ... 

LOL, I know what you mean about the weird sizing.  I'm 5' 3.5" and I wear size 10 pants, but could wear 8's if not for the excess skin on my belly.  You'd never know it was there while I'm fully dressed.  Wish I could get plastics done for the arms, belly, thighs and get the breasts enhanced.  Then I'd probably be wearing 6's.  One day...

Been 'off' for a few days, more ways than 1.  Starting reading The Beck Diet Solution which someone here ( or on R&R) suggested to someone else.  Working on the 'thinking' aspect.

yesterday:

coffee & miralax (tho could have skipped the miralax after my 'reaction' to a late night chocolate binge.  I use the "'" around reaction because the only reaction I had was d/t volume, not content.)

Eta: breakfast: two eggs, 2% cheese, 1/2 sand which thin.

snack. 1/3 protein bar

lunch chicken cheesesteak, with onions and cooked greens, minus the bread. A few 'restaurant made' potato chips.

dinner: awesome southwestern type salad with grilled chicken.

okay:  my problem time.....evening snacks: peanuts, pistachios, not too bad, but then had goldfish crackers -should have stayed away from those.

overall, awesome day.  Took the day off to go on a 200 mile motorcycle ride.  Had great weather and a great time.

Linda

200 milles ride- that sounds like lots of fun. 

Your day looks great... 

(Btw- 3 days later -- my system still tries to get rid of the chocolate.  I take it - better than being stuck... )

It takes a lot of effort for me to stay 'unstuck,' so I was not unhappy for the 'cleanout.'  I have been eating more salads, which is helping.

motorcycle ride was awesome- just a few of us girls!