I'm Lost

Dec 01, 2021

Hello everyone, 

I'm new here, and I'm just starting to realize that I am completely lost. Like many people, I have bad insurance, and I've just started to regularly see a PCP for the first time in my adult life. I've been struggling with my weight since I was a very young kid. It was very much of my Mom asking my Peds doctor what's wrong with me and why I seem to gain weight as easy as I breathe. It was also my Stepmom taking me to weight watchers when I was 11 and explaining to me that my life would be worthless if I wasn't able to lose weight. I had no control, and food/binge eating was the only thing that was mine. I know this story is familiar and painful, and I know that a lot of people here are/were probably in the same boat.

The reason I'm feeling so lost at the moment is that I've done it all. My entire childhood I had nutritionists and dietitians tell me what I needed to do. I've gone on diets for months, I've exercised until I've thrown up, and I've considered doing drastic things to myself just to lose weight for years.

As I said, I've just recently been able to go to a primary care physician for the first time in my adult life so for the last 10 years, medically, it's like I haven't existed. If I need to do a weight loss program for a few months to have the proper documents needed for surgery, I'll do it, but I don't even know how to get started. I've talked to my doctor about a referral, but my insurance is literally the worst. I can't find a single ounce of information online about which insurance companies actually cover weight loss programs or surgeries.

I'm feeling so defeated, and I'm really hoping that someone here has been in my situation and can tell me what to do next. I'm very used to doing things on my own and trying to solve things by myself, but I need help. Can anyone tell me what I'm supposed to be doing? I feel bad guys, I just feel really bad. 

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