Hey Terri, More people are in your shoes than you think but you will see this since you are a member of obesityhelp now and you will get the support here. I just want to tell you that I know what you are going through and in time things will be better. I just want to let you know that this does take patience but it will happen for you. I wish you all the luck and if you need anything at all just give me a yell.