angmberry
The Weighting Game
Feb 09, 2010
*Jeopardy music*Still waiting on insurance approval. I am definitely not a patient person, but know I qualify on weight alone. So I'm just a tad anxious to make sure I have the green light. I have my sleep study this weekend--fun way to spend Valentine's and Mardi Gras weekend, huh? LOL OH WELL....a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do!
My other anxieties and fears have subsided for the mean time and I am slowly getting used to the idea of bypass. I'm also getting excited about the future! (That's a good thing for a depress-o-matic like me!) Coming to terms with the fact that in a year I will no longer be over weight. I will be healthy. I will look different. I will FEEL different. Amazing. I look at people's before and after's and think, "wow, that will be me...."
I have been heavy and over weight almost my entire life, and that is something I've learned to live with and accept. I hope I learn to deal with the "new" me in a good way. Do I define myself and life over my weight? NO. I have a ton a friends and am very outgoing when I'm not too depressed. So hopefully I'll still be me, but a healthier version of myself. I'm looking forward to not aching when I wake up in the morning, hopefully getting off my asthma inhalers, running a mile and then a 5K and feeling good about how I look.
EXCITING!