Week down

Feb 14, 2024

I have been at a stall for 2 weeks. I lost 2 pounds though. I will take it. A loss is a loss. Thank goodness. I have been really good about my food. I can for sure feel when I get full. I have never had that before. That is so nice. That is what I wanted. Just to feel full. I feel like my food thoughts have become more quiet. Thank God for that. OMG though. Being a girl. The food noises are LOUD right before the "time of the month" Being a girl is so much fun. My cravings are alot.I just find something else to do. I might take up something. I should just go for a walk. I do not want to Jinx the weather. But it is being nice here in Colorado. That could change though. I am feeling lighter. Is that a thing? I feel my shirts are bigger. Is that just in my head? I am not sure. I am soooo ready to see some huge changes. I have been cleared to eat all the foods. I mean within reason. I do not eat fast food. I really do not want to. I have been listing to this lady on TIKTOK, that this surgery resets your hormones in the gut. Which maybe is true. And do not introduce the bad fast foods. Those have hormones that make you crave the foods more. My pouch is a new pouch. It has never had this food before. I dont want to introduce it. I had this surgery to change my realtionship with food. And by golly I am. I am not craving it. Normally. The period time.... that is a different story. But I just tell my brain to SHUT UP. 

I have talked to my friend and she and I are going out this summer. I want to go to the Grizzly Rose. It is a country bar out here in colorado. I want to dance and feel sooo good. I do not care if any men notice. Going out in confidence is so huge for me. I cannot wait to not wear sweat pants anymore. I mean I can wear jeans, but I just feel like I look huge in them. I don't like the way I look in them. I am looking forward to losing more. I am just not a patient person. I want this loss so bad. I know good things will come for me. I want to love myself again. I am a wonderful person. I am worthy of this. I am important too. I do matter. I am allowed to take up space. I am vauled. GOD loves me. This is something worth it. 

I also riding my bike 5 times a day. I might push it to 15 mins today. baby steps ya know. I know that I have to work out. I know they also say people trade one addiction for another. If that is the case.  I hope it is exercise lol. I mean I know that doesnt happen for all people, but I would be okay with that. 

Well until next week. I hope future Katie reads this a smiles because this is still the start of my journey. 

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