First-Sophie-I am proud of you for being honest about cheating! I am sure there are others who cheat, but don't fess up :)
Second, I haven't had surgery yet, but from what I have read, the MOST weight is going to come off the first 6 months. So you HAVE to make the most of it! You will lose weight from 6-12 months but then your stomach will begin to stretch, and you will get hunger pains again. Plus, with all that you are eating, aren't you afraid of stuffing your tiny pouch? I would be deathly afraid. You have been given a second chance at life, but if you don't use this tool NOW, there aren't any other alternatives. I wish you all the luck in the world!