Describe your behavioral and emotional battle with weight control before learning about bariatric surgery.
I have tried any diet possible. I was 10 yrs old when my family md gave me nerve pills and appetite suppressant pills to lose weight. I decided if I gave up mashed potatoes every Sunday that summer I would lose weight. The only thing is I gained only 2 pounds that summer instead of 30!!!
I was weighed in front of everyone in the 6th grade. The teacher weighing me yelled my weight out loud! I was so embarassed that I cried. I know the head teacher of the school sided with me and talked to the other teacher, but the scar was there.
I, then started starvation diets as I knew that I would be driving and then wanted to go to nursing school. I did lose about 50 lbs to start. My acceptance letter to nursing school says that I had been accepted and to keep up the work of losing weight.
In nursing school, I learned about Weight Watchers. I joined in my junior year. I lost more weight for a total of 125lbs. that year. I was on cloud nine. People would ask if I was a freshman at nursing school in my senior year. Also, one of my instructors said that all the others had been looking at me and said that I was really getting pretty.
I managed to stay low until I got married. Then I didn't have to impress anyone anymore. My husband loved me the way I was. The weight would come back on in 50-60 lb increments but I would join WW and they would come back down.I quit smoking when my husband had a heart attack. I immediately gained 50 lbs. I was entitled to it, as I had quit smoking. I tried Nutri System, NutriBolic, personal training,
almost Repro and then xenical or antidepressants such as Paxil.
Then I started going through menopause. Nothing was working. I am at wits end. I don't want to follow in the course as my older brothers and sisters have with heart disease, diabetes, and arthritis.
What was (is) the worst thing about being overweight?
Not being like everyone else! I have tried to make fun of the differences, but deep down it hurts. I have not enjoyed being the last one picked at softball games. I have not enjoyed not going to the prom. I have not enjoyed having a band uniform being tailored to fit. I have not enjoyed sitting on a chair and it breaks. I have not enjoyed not playing physically as others do. I have not enjoyed not being able to run! I have not enjoyed being able to buy clothes at the fine department stores when they are on sale. I have not enjoyed traveling and having to ask for an seatbelt extension. I have not enjoyed being crammed in an airline seat. I have not enjoyed being in a small shower and not being able to actually take a shower!
If you have had weight loss surgery already, what things do you most enjoy doing now that you weren't able to do before?
I love shopping in local stores. I love walking, too. I love not being hungery all the time. I now am satisfied after eating small amounts. Before I was always searching for food.