Describe your behavioral and emotional battle with weight control before learning about bariatric surgery.
I was an out of control person who was a control freak. It was insanity what I did to get that food in my mouth and hating myself with every bite. The more I battled to get in control the more out of control I became. The mere thought of going on a diet would send me into a food frenzy.I have done every diet,every pill,starvation,I even failed at being bulimic. I had gastric stapling thinking I had solved the problem but I was wrong. I am not sure if it didn't work or I didn't work but the weight loss was not sucessful. I would have my lips sewn shut if I thought it would stop the insanity. I just figured I would find some where else to shove the mashed potatoes. MY health was terrible and I knew I was going to die if I didn't get the weight off. I had already had several near misses with death because of health problems. I was scared my luck was going to run out. I wasn't through with what I wanted out of life so I wanted to live.I handled all of life's problems with food. Didn't matter what the mood was food was the answer. When I went to Dr. O'connel I was worn out from being me. I wasn't sure if this would work but I had done everything else. I had a hard time having the surgery because of the health I was in. It just had to be the miracle I was praying for. There was nothing else out there for me to try. I was broken and wanted the surgery to fix me. My story is no different than any one else that battles with obesity. What a ugly word that is. Its written on every medical chart I have. If I went in for a sore throat it was caused by obesity. I am not a writter or very good at spelling but you have to understand I am obese. Every thing else in my life can be linked to the fact I was FAT so why not the spelling. I hated myself but not life! I am a better person because of my battle with weight. I am senitive to others, I am not judgemental and I make a very good friend through the tuff times because I have been there, done that and still am stuggling.
What was (is) the worst thing about being overweight?
How other people see you. Plus seeing yourself 10 times worse than what others saw. No one could make me feel worse than I made myself feel every minute of everyday. All others did with the cow moo's and laughter was verify what I already knew.
If you have had weight loss surgery already, what things do you most enjoy doing now that you weren't able to do before?
I have bones that I never knew I had. I can sit with my legs crossed. I can move around with ease. I can fit in a movie seat and in booths at a resturant. I can go out dancing and not look like someone turned the sprinklers on me from sweat. I can be a more involved parent to my children than I could before. I can go shopping for clothes and actuall find something to fit. I can fit into a room of people and not feel like I stand out because of my weight. I enjoy not being noticed because of my weight but instead because I am a wonderful person.