Describe your behavioral and emotional battle with weight control before learning about bariatric surgery.

It seems like as soon as I hit puberty my life went down hill, as far as my weight goes. First I was lectured on how if I didn't watch it I would get fat like my mom and one aunt. Then it progressed. Then I was raped in my own home. After that I slowly but surely put on weight. At age 15 at around 5' 3" I weighed around 215-225 lbs. At age 17 I worked my butt off, literaly. I got down to 180. Shortly after losing the weight I discovered mini thins (trucker pills.) . I now know they are speed I didn't know it at the time. And like many teens I didn't take the dosageon the label. So I ruined my blood preasure and my already slow matabolisum. I got up to 220 when I was 23. My weight has continued to clime up and down. The tip of it all came in 2002 i fell at work and broke my back and messed up my neck.While being treated for this it was discovered that I was pregnant with our 3rd child. this mad it all risky. So I was on bed rest adn put on 100 lbs ( I already weighed 330). So that has brought my weight up to 440. That didn't help the depression and low self estem i had been fighting for years. So I sat andd ate my way to 445 lbs.

What was (is) the worst thing about being overweight?

Not being able to MOVE. People looking at me and I can see they are physicaly replused. But I think the ABSOLUTE worst has been seeing the way my hubby and kids have had to deal with the public. They ignore the rude looks and stares.They never get embarassed or act ashamed. There are soooo many thing I want to do and go!!!! I can't even dress by my self!!!!!! I think the ABSOLUTE WORST thing though is the loss of my SELF WORTH, CONFIDENCE, and SELF LOVE.

If you have had weight loss surgery already, what things do you most enjoy doing now that you weren't able to do before?

I am pre-op at this stage. I just cleared 2 of the hurddles.