Describe your behavioral and emotional battle with weight control before learning about bariatric surgery.
I've been overweight forever. As a child, as a preteen, and morbidly obese as a teenager.Like many ppl with addictions, i had suffered as a youth in a very dysfunctional family. I thought breaking family cycles of various abuses and addictions would mean I succeeded then I realized at my highest weight of 439 lbs that I too was addicted and abusing my health. I've been on most every diet out there and found success often until I was triggered. I was accepted into my insurance plans first round where I had to loose 3%. At that point I was 375lbs. After paying high price for dietician they Approved, loosing weight, having a psychological exam I was scheduled for surgery. Day of surgery I was denied due to having a cold. I was rescheduled and had RNY on 12/15/12. I continue to struggle as this is a tool and not a fix. Slider foods find there way into house or hand when I am sad, anxious (which i am diagnosed with having),or stressed. I am human and need to take this process one day a a time. I recognize support is a big tool I must utilize.
What was (is) the worst thing about being overweight?
The worst part about being overweight is being self-involved. I constantly worry about where ill fit, sit, or eat. I worry about my appearance, skin, and constant failures. I love who I am but not what I look like. I hate feeling judged by others and myself.
If you have had weight loss surgery already, what things do you most enjoy doing now that you weren't able to do before?
I love love love crossing my legs and finding bones. Like collar bones.
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