In less than a week (DUN DUN DUUUNNN)....
I'll be sleeved in less than a week, Monday Feb 6th (if all goes according to plan). This time next week, I'll likely be home asking myself wth did I do to my body, as most of you wondered those first few days. I'll have some pain, but I'll probably be oblivious to it considering I have a pretty high tolerance.
The first week of the liquid diet I was emotional and sensitive. Commercial music would make me want to cry. I was in mourning and I know that most of you know exactly what that felt like.
My life is going to change. As I learn this new discipline, I will begin to see changes in myself physically and mentally, and I hope that I will be strong enough for those things. There will be so many bridges to cross.
Though I'm jittery, I'm mostly very excited. It feels like I'm preparing for a space mission, really. This is uncharted territory, going where I've never been before, reaching what I hope will be the final frontier in this battle with my bulge. There were a few days where I was thinking it was more like being on death row because I was more focused on rational fears but they have subsided, thankfully.
Writing things like this down is cathartic. Walking and catching up on celebrity tabloids, something I've NEVER done before, seem to be helping me relax during this week leading up to my surgery.
What did you do to mentally prepare? How did you get over the jitters?
