before and NOW

All I need to move forward w surgery is my pcp's referral (my ins is great called n told me this) My Pcp thinks I'm not ready....I cried ranted whined wondered n wondered while I sipped my red red whine (pun intended) and while I used my brain over the past week to wonder of my pcps thoughts of me "not being ready" Came to realize he is right although I've tracked my food on n off for yrs n this last 9 mos. Its WHAT I'm tracking n haven't fully embraced this before time so I can be the most successful me :) so.... I'm embracing NOW an ima show him by my actions n tracking much healthier foods. I say I cant wait but know I have too...so thanks to u all who post before n NOWS or rafters lol