This is tthe right decision for you at this time. You need to be ready physically, and mentally for this journey. When it was first suggested to me, I wasn't sure I was ready, several months later, I was and I started the journey then. This may have caused me to wait longer, but it was the decision that I needed to make when I was ready.
You have done well on your own already, you can commit to that. And when you are mentally ready, you can do this.
Either way, you are always welcome here. This site isn't just for surgery, we'll support you either way in your journey.