so, the nurse emailed me yesterday to ask me if i could come this thursday.  hahahaha.  i said, no, i told you in my email i would be out of town and wouldn't be able to come until the 14th if i couldn't get in last week.  then she said she was on vacation last week and thought me email came this monday.  whatever. 
i have an appt on the 14th.  she also emailed me a realize questionnaire to fill out - i.e.- what foods do you eat, how long does it take, when are you hungry & how often do you vomit.....   really?   how often do you vomit?  if i were getting sick, that would mean i have good restriction.  again, whatever.
as far as the fills, mine are included for like 9 months after surg, i think.  it's at least 6 months, anyway.  i do believe they fill slowly because he did say when they are quicker to fill with a larger amount, he's had patients sick more often than not.  i would be sick as well if i were eating crappy food.  i took my girls to mcd's the other day & stole one chicken nugget.  yep, it wasn't pretty.  same for bread.   which is fine.  good, as a matter of fact.  i don't need to eat that crap.  but i also don't think i should be able to eat  a salad that could feed a family of four, either...
i'm not giving up yet, and i'm definitely on the nurse's sh*t list, as she is on mine, so we'll see what happens on the 14th.  until then, thanks again all for your support!

thanks, ladies!

cmagouirk:

my first appt for a fill was at 3 mos out - and at my 10 day they said, of course, if you need something sooner, just call.  well, i had to go through an interrogation just to get in there on 05/12...and then couldn't talk him into more than 2cc.  a few days later i was calling, begging for another fill, and couldn't get in until 5/26, but he gave me an additional 5cc.  probably to shut me up!  he is an excellent surgeon, and teaches bariatric procedures at the univ of virginia.  he's been doing this for over 10 years (my mil had her rny with him in '01).  i trust him, and understand that they err on the side of caution, and, since i am 2 hours away, don't want me to end up sick with no help.  i also believe i am the exception to the norm...and trying to convince them of this has been/is difficult.

this is exactly how i feel.. 4 oz of food is not satisfying my hunger & i am so hungry after a while, i break down and overeat or pick the wrong foods that fill me.  and then i'm just more upset with myself.

fortunately, i began exercising last august, when i started my six month diet.  i started with walking, and when the weather turned cold, i headed inside to the gym.  i was doing an hour a day 3-4 days a week on the elliptical.  i started walking again at 4 weeks out, though not very regularly.  the dr told me 8 weeks before going back to the gym.  well, with the kids out of school (4 & 9) i can't get to the gym with them anyway, but i do have an elliptical in the basement.  i finally had a talk with myself in the mirror the other day and i hit the elliptical again thursday.  it felt so good.  yesterday i was in the dumps, so, no elliptical, but i did get on again today.  i know i need to exercise.  as you also said..  from working out, you have built up your stamina and muscles and are healthier than those that have had an "easier" time.  i agree with that 100%.  good for you!

i need to be more honest with myself.  i know i need exercise, and i know how i'm supposed to eat.  i'm not giving up.  this has to work.  i have no other option.  even though my loss is slow, and i still need more fills, i know that i am less today than i was 2 months ago, and i also know i will keep going down.

thank you so much for your support....i really appreciate it.


kim h:

i am very good about my fluids, and make good food choices most of the time.  getting back on the elliptical is going to help me, and so will another fill, lol!  i'm optimistic.

i too, soon will be traveling for almost 3 weeks, living in hotels...

however, the hotels provide breakfast, and i need to be accountable for my choices.  there are plenty of healthy offerings.  being on vacation will not be my excuse for making bad choices.  same thing with the restaurants i will visit.  i need to stick to my guns and use the fact that someone else is going to cook something healthy FOR me! 

how do your husband & in-laws eat?  i'm glad that you are positive about it being easier since you will be mostly at their home.  i know for me, being in someone else's home is harder, especially if they are not all geared towards a healthy lifestyle. 

anyway..thanks again so much for your support.  i truly appreciate it.