Am I a wretched mother, grandmother, sister,aunt, friend?
My spouse is the only one besides those I've met here who knows about my plans to have wls. I have wanted this surgery for a very long time. Many years back I talked to my daughters about this and they responded that if I just ate heathier food and exercised more I could lose weight on my own. That was maybe 6 or more years ago. I believe they would still feel the same today. I also believe that my other family and friends would probably not be 100% supportive. My husband is not 100% supportive. I even told him that I wish I had a support person that was 100% supportive so he would not have to take me to the hospital or pick me up. I think he would rather much be playing tennis which I tell him is his first love because frankly that's just about where I think I stand.
I believe I found a competent surgeon and I don't think I will have any problems. But what if I die on the table and never have a chance to say I love you to these people. I thought about writing letters to the few I really would want to express something to but I think it may just **** them off even more.
Anyway, I truly would rather not tell anyone else ever. It is not that I am embarrassed about getting the surgery. It is just that I am a very private person and I don't want to talk about it.
Is it wrong or selfish to do this and feel this way?
Thanks for your thoughts...
And the chances of you, or anyone, dying on the table are LESS THAN 0.1%. And those who do usually had many and severe pre-existing conditions/complications.
This is the one time it's ALL about you. Nobody else. You need to be selfish or you won't follow through.
Good luck.
Beth
Former RNY patient revising to Sleeve then DS.
Appts: Dietitian - January 21/19; July 16/19, August 13/19, September 17/19, October 15/19; Social Worker: August 23/19; DS Orientation: March 20/19; Internist: September 30/19; Surgeon: November 13/19 (signed consent).
Surgery Date: February 28/20.
MY RNY DIDN'T FAIL ME - I FAILED IT.
I am really sorry that your husband isn't more supportive...
If it makes you feel better to write letters to those you love, then by all means, do it! They don't have to be "If I die, know I loved you" letters. Maybe just send out "I love you and was thinking of you" cards with a personal note.
I wish you nothing but the best, and I'm sure you'll do great!
Tell whomever you want to tell and don't tell anyone you feel uncomfortable telling. If you feel your husband isn't being as supportive as you'd like, find other support people. does your surgeon has a support group? Start going to that. And tell your hubby specifically what you would like him to do in order to support you better.
Please note: I AM NOT A DOCTOR. If you want medical advice, talk to your doctor. Whatever I post, there is probably some surgeon or other health care provider somewhere that disagrees with me. If you want to know what your surgeon thinks, then ask him or her. Check out my blog.
My husband and 18 year old daughter were not 100% supportive...but, in the end knew it was my decision and supported me through the surgery and recovery.
Don't feel selfish in your private decision to tell or not to tell. You have to be comfortable with it!
Once I decided to have the surgery, good luck to ANYONE who tried to come between me and my decision. You sound like you are that committed.
The people who love us just don't understand the big picture. They don't understand the disease process that got us to the place we are, and that surgery is a treatment option. The option is an extremely important one for those of us in the 95% of people who don't succeed in dieting. For some strange reason our loved ones (and even we ourselves) think we should be able to succeed in those odds.
It is very sad that you feel your husband puts tennis before you. I had serious troubles in my relationship in the years leading up to the surgery. Let me just say those troubles would have existed even if I was thin. Intimacy was gone - and by intimacy I mean the ability to have heart to heart open trusting and loving communication, and the knowledge of being loved even when not at my best.
The decision to have surgery was very much about me stepping up and taking a HUGE step in favour of my health, well being and happiness. It sounds that way for you too. Many good things have flowed from that - not having the surgery, but the decision to take care of myself and value myself - and one of the things has been a tremendous improvement in my relationship with my husband.
You sound like a caring and special person. Take care of you! Best of luck however you decide to handle it.
(ps. you might also consider inviting your children to share this journey with you. Sometimes people are not entirely supportive, but are willing to stick with you because they love you. Give them lots of opportunity to learn - share good information with them to combat the "horror stories" they've heard. Sometimes the conversion to being a "believer" is a slow process. Again, entirely your call. You do it the way it works for you.)
Of course you aren't wretched. You have to do what you need to do for yourself. I'm sorry to hear your husband and others are not very supportive of your decision. Maybe they are scared they will lose you. Those who have never been obese truly don't know how hard it is.
The letters are a great idea. I was going to do that even for people who knew about the surgery but ran out of time.
Praying for your complete healing and recovery!
Wynter
I'm not very far out from surgery - about 2.5 weeks post-op - but I'm already glad to have had it done. The weight is still there - not rapidly dropping - and I'm still glad to have had it done. I also had fears of "what could happen on the table" - and wrote letters that my family could find. I'm thinking now that I should maybe share the letters just so they know that I love them.
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