What the Hell has Happened to Me?
This is in a good way, btw lol. And to be clear, I apologize in advance for rambling :-)
First of all, I went today to get my eyes checked and get new glasses as it's the first and I can use my Flex Spending acct. I have spent my entire life trying to be inconspicuous...and frugal. I'm starting to feel better about myself now (though I realize I've not yet lost that much weight) and as a result, I've taken a renewed interest in how I look. Well, long story short, I chose these sorta snazzy new frames (Tiffany, I might add) and spent WAY too much money on them. I feel guilty...like REALLY guilty, but, I love them and feel kinda like I deserve it. They have a bit of bling on them (and I've NEVER been a blingy person) and will so not make me inconspicuous lol. How strange of me!
Then...as I'm headed home... I realize I'm all excited to get there b/c....get this...I GET TO GO FOR MY AFTERNOON WALK! lol I live in Florida and it's a gorgeous day. But ME? Looking forward to a WALK? As I said, WTH has happened to me?
And now I'm crying lol...just talking about it. I'm not very far out from surgery (four weeks on Friday) but...I truly believe this was the best decision of my life. And I'm so grateful for this forum. I'm not a good forum person, but this place has been a Godsend to me.
Ok, end of ramble...thanks for letting me share :-)
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Your post made me tear up a bit. I remember those moments when I stopped feeling like I wanted to be invisible and like a new person was emerging out of the fat body. I wish I could hug you right now. You deserve those glasses and I hope this is just the start of things to come.
I want a picture of the new glasses, especially the sparkle. :)
Y'all are so great! As I read the replies, I cried all over again. Chalk it up to fat-released hormones, or finally coming to grips with the fact that this is REALLY happening to me! Surgery was all sort of surreal...I didn't quite believe I was doing it...or that it would work. Maybe today, it's starting to get through my skull.
Aaaanyway....here's the link to the pic of the glasses on my profile. Also while there, you can see my first pic here and then the second taken this past week. I think a see a difference!
Anyway...the pics are on my profile here.
Thanks again everyone! Happy New Year! :-))
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