Can I really do this?

It was a rough weekend for me. On one hand, I'm so excited about the surgery, and the process is moving ahead well. On the other hand, I haven't done so well with changing the way I eat. Should I cut myself some slack and be proud of the changes I have made? Weighing everyday, beginning to track everything in myfitnesspal, drinking all my water, because all I can focus on is that I ate my son's body weight in baked goods yesterday at my husband's aunts house. The Saturday night party went pretty well - I stayed away from the dessert tray entirely, and mainly stuck with the turkey meatballs I brought for the potluck and drank unsweetened tea. I did have a couple of teaspoonfuls of several of the dips, but better than the heaping tablespoonfuls from before. Am I focusing too much on those evil cookies, brownies, and crystallized grapefruit, and can't appreciate what I've already done? I hate my head and the self defeating attitude, but I can't quite seem to get what I should be focusing on now.

Forgive the rambling, and any encouragement would really be appreciated!

Thanks!

take it one day at a time. after surgery you wont be able to eat those things anymore. at least for a while you wont want to anyway

You need to cut yourself some slack but it is also good you realized that you overate and made some choices to help you along the way.  My thought was if I could do it alone, I would not have been sleeved we all need the help the sleeve can offer but it is just that-help.  The choices are still yours to make.  I am newly sleeved and I am scared that I will not be able to control myself once I feel like eating and can eat again but that is a hurdle I will have to overcome.  I know two weeks before the liquid diet I was eating anything that I could get my hands on and had a "bucket list" of food.  Now I was able to control it and have a few slices of pizza instead of the whole pizza or a few wings instead of a dozen but I still ate.  The holidays are especially tough and food will be everywhere so you do have a battle.  During the six month process, myfitness pal was a lifesaver and allowed me to see what I was really consuming.  It also allowed me to plan for those holiday meals a little better because I could plan my meals throughout the day and if I cheated one day, I took it easy the next.  Make sure you always have water when you are at a party (flavored may help) because you can fill up with the water and walk away from the food.  Hang in there!

My Family and I went out of state to my Parents this weekend and I ate like a pig at dinner time.  Did ok except for dinner.  Both nights, ham, sweet potato suffle, do I need to go on.  I still pre-op but I told Mom this was my last year getting to eat like this.  I did feel some guilt though.  I'm trying to get back on track today.  Hoping to have a surgery date within the next few weeks.  Merry Christmas to all.

What you're going through right now is exactly why you need the surgery.  Most of us go through the yo-yo dieting all our lives, and then come to the realization that what we're doing is just not working for us.  Being aware of what you're doing is a fantastic first step - after surgery you'll have a period of time where it's easier to change your habits; if you're willing to, which it sounds like you are.  

This dreadful holiday food season will soon be over, and we can all focus on what's really important - our health and happiness!

You're doing just fine - good luck with your surgery!

Yes you can do this!  None of us are perfect and I think a big key to success is to recognize when you "mess up", get right back on track and continue your journey. 

You're doing okay! I splurged with food before my surgery which was 12/18. But now I am following my post op diet and watching my body shirk! You'll do great.