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Eric S. Schlesinger, M.D., F.A.C.S
I had to laugh reading his other reviews, because the description was so perfect. A little "robotic" in his presentation, but perfectly professional. I really like the fact that he has done so many RNY surgeries, >1500. I feel confident that he could do it with his eyes closed if necessary. I am really hoping I get my insurance approval so I can have this surgery, and that they don't have a different Dr. "In Network" that they expect me to use who is not so experienced. The BTC Program is a whole program. My feeling is that they will be there for me after it is done. I was impressed that so many of their employees are former patients. It show a certain loyalty, I think.

ADDITIONAL INFORMATION: I am now post op and the surgery went well. In just 2 weeks my scar is nicely healed and when the normal redness calms down will be nearly invisible. Nice Job!

FURTHER UPDATE: It is almost 3 years since my surgery. My scar is as nice as or nicer than any plastic surgery scars I have. I have had no complications from my gastric bypass. I still can & do attend support groups at Barix. I still can call a dietician, patient counselor, doctor any time I want.

(Barix closed their doors in Illinois in 2007 - much to my dismay)

5 YEARS POST OP - I traveled from Chicago to Phoenix AZ specifically to see DR. S. He was speaking at an OH event. He had moved to Phoenix several years ago. I wanted to see him and thank him for my surgery and his amazing skill that gave me this opportunity to succeed where I had nothing but failure before. I thanked him and hugged him - more than once. It was so nice to see him smile and the warmth he demonstrated at my success - he actually had tears well up in his eyes when I thanked him and told him about the things in my life that are so much better. When I first met him I thought his presentation was somewhat "robotic". This experience showed me the very warm, very human side of a man who really wants to help those of us who struggle with obesity.
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  • Comment by ~Stacy H~ on 1/16/06 8:47 am
    Hi Willow, Good luck w/your up coming surgery! I wish you an uneventul surgery and recovery. Hugs, Stacy
  • Comment by spiritprism on 1/8/06 10:51 am
    Hi Willow, I found your reply about not losing weight for long periods, encouraging. I have not only stopped losing, but have gained 15 pounds in the last month. I have just been so (mind) hungry, that I am eating too much. Do you have any suggestions on how to slow this down? I have lost from 270 to 205, now back up to 215. thank you. email at alexaspirit@yahoo.co m Thanks. Lisa
  • Comment by Debby M. on 10/2/02 12:56 am
    Congradulations Willow on your recent surgery. I am praying that you have a quick and uneventful recovery. God bless you on the rest of your journey
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regain
on September 25, 2008 7:42 pm
someone emailed me about fears of regain and as I have dealt with that in the past year and gotten it back off I wanted to share my answer I gave on the question on avoiding regain.


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the RNY is a wonderful tool. the regain issue as I posted in my blog and on the message board is not an issue of the tool working well, but how I use it. wehen I was super stressd I ate to console myself and binged inappropriately and put on 15 pounds. I lost it by returning to what I knew was right with the help of my DR and therapist.

I think the whole real key is using FOOD as a tool for health. to maintain a balanced eating habit. all the food groups and focusing on  "is this food going to nourish my body?"  I work hard at reading labels and choosing foods that are the best nutrtional value - ie Kashi go lean cereal is high fiber and high protein, Cheerios pale in comparison on both counts. so I eat Kashi not Cheerios. I compared nutritional value of veggie burgers to a regular burger and the veggie burgers come in far superior in nutritional value. I focus on "superfoods" look on www.sparkpeople.com  and do a search for articles on superfoods - but they would included whole grains, fresh berries, salmon, broccoli, spinach, lean chicken and lean meats, low fat dairy products,  soy beans. my grocery list is consistantly filled with these foods and I do not keep low value foods in my house. no chips, crackers, cookies, etc. unless I buy a very smalll quantity for  a paty or something. If I am dying to have a chip I buy a single serving bag at a gas station or something or 1 really good cookie from a bakery.

super foods and kitchen makeover articles from sparkpeople

http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/nutrition_articles.asp?id=283

http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/nutrition_articles.asp?id=307

http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/nutrition_articles.asp?id=356

daily physical activity of some kind. Park at the back of the lot. take the stairs. walk to the grocery for the 1 gallon of milk. yes I go up & down stairs for 1 item - pre op I saved up my trips to go once a day.  walk, bike, dance, vacuum daily, go to a gym if you can afford it or get a video. just move it. go to the park and play on the equipment with the kids - I go on the swings and slides with my grand kids - yeah Im 48 and I am  old and i still do it anyways and I think the "adults" who might stare are jealous - im having fun and thye are stting on the sideline. Now that ive lost the weight I even fit in the tunnels at the play places with the grandkids! and that is fun as heck! and a lot of exercise crawling through.

no surgery will be successful long term if you don't change your lifestyle and your thinking. you have to face why you got over weight and deal with that and what you need to change to not go back there. I had serious untreated depression for years. that contributed. sexual abuse as a kid that made me want to hide myself and not be sexy. had to work on it and still am working on being ok with being sexy and being looked at and making progress. learning to speak up for my own needs rather than just taking care of everyone else's quietly. 

yes the changes will place a strain on relationships. it is work to grow up the relationship as you grow up and become a self responsible adult and partners may not want to grow with you.  but I think those problems were preexisting before surgery just buried under it all with everything else not dealt with. 

I hope you find som eanswers you need for your decsion - I know I rambled a lot. keep in touch

hugs - Val

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6 years out of surgery - wow- where did the time go?
on September 24, 2008 6:32 pm
Tomorrow is my 6th anniversary of surgery and I always get thoughtful about the changes I have been through as my journey through life continues.

I suppose my post this year is  different than my other ones,  but some things do bear repeating.

Surgery gave me the edge I needed to get to where I am today, but surgery is not   keeping me where I am. Lifestyle changes are doing that. in the end it really does come down to appropriate food intake and exercise, and a tool to help me stay on track with portions. And getting into a healthy place emotionally.

I did learn a hard lesson this year though - that even with my wonderful tool I can mess up - and I did for a while. I had a period of some very extreme stress. A serious illness in the family, and me having to take time out to be a caregiver.  during that time I got out of my workout habit - I felt  I could not leave home for that long and I was too overwhelmed to think of using the knowledge & self discipline to workout at home and do what I knew  needed to be done.  I also fell back into emotional eating big time. I managed to go up 10 pounds in 3 weeks  - even with my exquisite tool intact and funtioning well, saw that on the scale, freaked out, started binging even more and went up even more for  a total of 15 pounds over all to 150 pounds.  When reality of what I was doing hit I nearly had a nervous breakdown over what I had done to myself.  I bought diet pills, (threw them down the toilet when I got home as I was in touch with reality enough to know how really stupid that was)  I tried to do a very restrictive diet. I failed and that freaked me out more. I knew all this was the same roller coaster ride that got me to 260 + before and I had to do something before it got worse.

Time for more intense therapy and hard work. I saw my shrink and told her what was up and she offered tremendous support - and medication to help manage some of the stress - I also hadn't been sleeping ( which in itself contributes to increased stress, and weight gain) and help me get some sleep. It took some doing  and trialing a couple different meds but I got that under control and then had to start dealing with my emotions, coping skills and  issues with food once again.

I have found ( I knew and managed to let myself forget) that exercise is a fabulous stress reducer, especially if you find something you love. I bought a new bike - I hadn't had one since I was a teenager - over 25 years. I found that riding is such a stress reducer - I get out there and hit the trail and I feel like a kid again and the bad stuff sort of blows off of me.
 
I also learned that  no matter how much others NEED me and rely on me I HAVE to take care of myself first at times or I WILL crash and burn and no one will get taken care of.  As Jackie Guerra says in her book Under Construction  -   "put on your own oxygen mask first"

I found that by reducing the stress by taking that time out I reduced my desire to binge. One day I had a particularly rough day I was on the verge of a major binge, and I put on my helmet and went out just around the neighborhood for a while on my bike. It took a little while to clear out my mind, but then I just started enjoying it and just being there and letting everything else go. My urge to binge just left like a big knot unravelling and floating away.  it was a life defining moment. At that moment I learned, believed for the first time wholely and completely,  that I could be in charge of my feelings and choices.

I have talked at length with my therapist about whether one can really truely be free of an eating disorder - if it can be "cured" In the book "How much does your soul weigh?" the author - Dorie McCubbrey says yes.  My therapist said for some people the eating disorder becomes their identity, and they cannot let go of it because they don't know who they are with out it. So one of my focuses  has been on discovering who I am. I decided I refuse to be defined by a disorder.

So I am now back to my eating plan - it is NOT a diet - unbalanced restricitive crazy diets just don't work for long term healh, fitness or stable weight.  5 meals a day - 6 oz of meat, fish , chicken or veggie burgers, 3 servings of dairy, 2-3 veggies - 2 fruits (always a banana every day) and 2-4 high fiber whole grains  a day. plenty of fluids, and daily activity.  I still occasionally have a cookie or some dark chocolate ( I like trader joes dark chocolate covered expresso beans & I can eat just a couple and feel satiated)

I have had some ups & downs and some really cool adventures - see my blog about my summer vacation and, 6 flags,  July 3rd and other adventures.  I am hoing to go to Las vegas in the next month as my birthday present for myself.

this morning I weighed 136, my perfect weight is 135  +/- 5 pounds




This life is a journey and there will always be new things to learn and advntures to have. I hope I can remember daily to celebrate and enjoy the gratitude for the wonderful thing I have been given.

Once again  - Thank you Dr. Schlessinger and Dawn My wonderful therapist who has helped me find so many of my own answers.
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summer's (almost) end
on September 16, 2008 9:32 am

summer’s end
Current mood: nostalgic

 

I love summer. I mean I really love it. The hot sunny days. Naps in the hot afternoon with the windows open and the sounds of the neighborhood kids playing and yelling and the sound of someone mowing their grass. The smell of the fresh mown grass and the flowers in my garden. The flowers blooming with bees buzzing lazily around. Birds chirping at 5 am at the feeder and the hummingbirds sipping from their feeder and the flowers on the deck and in the yard.  Running the sprinkler and seeing birds and butterflies from all over the neighborhood start collecting around the spraying water.

wearing shorts, tank tops and flip flops every day. 

 Summer nights when it cools down a little and the lightening bugs are blinking out over the lawn and the kids  chasing them to catch and put in an old mayonaise jar with holes poked in the lid.  Bonfires in the back yard with marshmallows to toast and smores to make.

I love the long seemingly endless days, when it is light when I awaken and doesn't get dark til almost bedtime. No school for the kids, and they are playing out late.

Bike riding and walking in the sunshine.

Although fall is not officially here it is September and it feels like it. It is dark in the morning when I am getting up for work and Friday it was dark when I got off work as well. It is colder, rainey. the nights are definately cold. the flowers are slowing down and soon there will be a frost that will take most if not all of them. The birds will start migrating and every day I wonder if it is the last for the hummingbirds I treasure watching so much.

Time to unpack the sweaters and think about putting away the shorts and flip flops.

I always feel so sad this time of year. A sense of loss. I don't know if it is just the loss of summer or a memory of some other loss from child hood. My father died in the fall when I was 4 so maybe that is part of it. The end of child hood.

I'm hoping for just a little more  "Indian Summer" before it is really over for the year.

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3rd of July in Chicago
on July 3, 2008 9:30 am

 

I went to the "city " for the Taste of Chicago - someting I have not done for many years and only once then. I have never gone there for the "big " firework show before.

My inspiration was taking Dan - our friend visiting from Denmark and to have him see the Chicago firework show as well - and the whole circus experience involved.

We took the train down and walked to Grant park, via Millineum park. We had gone to Millineum Park last spring, but it was in April and the fountains were shut down, it was cold and grey and there were no people around.  It is a totally different place in Summer. It is ALIVE!  the water cascading, children running and laughing, people of all ages, cultures, and backgrounds walking through, it is awesome.  We also walked over to Buckingham fountain, as it also was shut down when we saw it before and like the park is a very different place in summer.  Then on to get lunch.

The food choices were amazing. we tasted African food - Sauteed goat on coconut rice, (from Bolat restaurant - which I will be going to as soon as I get the chance) shrimp in spicy tomato sauce, Pad Thai,  sesame beef satay, chicken satay wth peanut sauce and cucumber salad, a boneless ribs sandwich with a spicy tamarind bbq sauce ( latin asian fusion) we tried and shared everything.We also walked down the lakefront bike path to Navy Pier and walked the pier.I want to go back there and spend a Satuday night at the beer garden even tho I don't like beer and just listen to music and drink something else. Then walked back to Grant park for another snack or two and cheese cake and to secure a spot for the fireworks. (we were too full to eat the cheesecake so got a box for it and ended up eating it after midnight on the train coming home.)

 We finally found a spot to spread out blanket and settled in for the wait and it was interesting just people watching.  A group of gangbangers ( it was weird watching them as they got together with goofy hand signals and handshakes and hugs etc) was sitting in front of us passing a joint, and while they were doing it a group of at least 40 cops walked right through between them and me and they didn't even stop smoking and the cops didn't even slow down - I guess it was not that important to them. I later heard someone saying there had been a  fight by the porta-potties and someone was trying to knock over the potties. YUK! crazy dumb asses.

We were amazed that even though it was pretty crowded at 7:30 when we got our spot the people just kept coming. and coming. and coming.  It ended up every inch was covered all around us. We had seen people staking out spots at 3 in the afternoon with literally stakes, and ropes, etc to mark their spaces and thought they were crazy, but I guess they weren't that crazy after all. The fireworks were scheduled to start at 9:30pm and promptly started around 10pm.  the show was a lot shorter than I would have expected for a big city show, I think the show in Sleepy Hollow is actually more extensive.

Then walking to the train... What a trip!!!! As we worked our way at a snail's pace down Monroe street, there was a solid mass of humanity literally wall to wall across the street, shoulder to shoulder as far as the eye could see.  As we walked people were clapping and shouting and laughing. it was kind of like a million people doing the wave, but with sound, travelling up and down the street reverberating against the buildings. It was INSANE! But fun.

It took a while to get to Union Station and when we did we hopped on our train that was to leave at 11:50 PM but it was full with in minutes and left at 11:20. The car we in was jammed with people pretty much all young enough to be my kids, and they were having a good time, exuberant but harmless for the most part.

Security made a show of force walking en mass through the train - and was I ever surprised to see security guards with guns.  They actually were police who had yellow T - shirts over their police shirts that said security on them.

Apparently, our train car was the loudest and 2 of the security guards returned to our car and stood on either side of the rowdy group. One guy was really giving them a hard time and they actually threatened to throw him off the train. He did settle down but later started acting up again, there was a scuffle behind me and next thing I knew the cops had him by the neck dragging him to the door and at the next stop he was removed from the train. The car quieted down a lot at that point until a few stops; later a punk kid maybe 14 years old, obviously stoned started insulting the cops, really rude and obnoxious, and said "go ahead throw me off this is my stop anyways." the train started moving and someone said if this is your stop you just missed it - he said oh well I live in bartlett I'll just walk my ass home and went back to insulting the cops. The cops were amazingly patient with his verbal abuse - I would have popped him if I had been them. Fortunately he was off at the next stop, and while it was still noisy it was back to good natured and funny. 

Another guy on the car was wearing the low rider pants that showed a large amount of his underpants and  a T shirt that said "VOTE declare yourself." I joked to Dan he should declare his pants either off or on and make up his mind. He thought he was a comedian and was standing up telling jokes the whole way.

We were at the last stop and I was so glad to see my car and get home and see my bed.

All in all the whole day was a blast, and while I don't think I will go to Chicago for July 3rd fireworks again - the crowd was a little overwhelming - I am really glad I did it this year.

This is my year to try many new things and man I am going for it all the way. Last year my New Year's resolution was to try something new at least once every month and I didn't make it, but I am making up for it this year.

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goals met
on July 2, 2008 12:28 pm
One of my very first posts on OH talked about my "3 wishes" if I were to lose the weight.  One of them was to fit into the Batman Ride at 6 flags Great America.  

I did it on Monday! and Superman too. 

Yes, I could have done it sooner, but my grandson has been wanting so bad to go on the roller coasters since he was about 5. One of my other goals was to enjoy my grandkids and be able to have fun with them. so, I waited for him to get tall enough (54 inches) and he met that goal this month. 

We really had a ton of fun.

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what I did on my summer vacation
on June 23, 2008 7:56 pm
 

My summer vacation
Current mood: tired
Category: Travel and Places

 

Saturday-June 7, 2008

 I got off to an early start with my 7 am flight – at the airport by 530 am – and it was a good thing. The gate was hard to find – I had to trek down a very long jet way with intended to be amusing signs that said things like – "this way to A4B, true – we lost a bet – False". And "no bathrooms, no food, no drinks, the plane will be paradise after this".  By the time I got to the actual gate they were beginning to board.  The pilot warned that the flight had to be re routed due to bad weather, and that our arrival to Miami would be late, and to expect turbulence.  We were only a few minutes late and the turbulence was minimal.

Arrived at the Red Roof Inn by noon, and checked in.  I signed up for the shuttle to the Port of Miami the next day, was told it was at 1 pm, and I said "and check out is at 11?". (Really?)The clerk said I could stay in the room until noon. I wonder if I was the first to question that.

 The room was comfortable, nice pool there too. 

I was going to go for a walk, but realized that since it was located right next to the airport it was not a great neighborhood for a walk, so I went to Bennigan's and had lunch. After lunch sat by the pool with a book and relaxed until I fell asleep out there and when I woke up decided I should go to my room if I was going to sleep.  Took about a 4 hour nap.  Found some one had vomited right outside my door and called for housekeeping. They came shortly after and made a half hearted attempt at SWEEPING it up with a broom.  Got most of the chunks but it reeked.  Then, my toilet overflowed. I ended up changing rooms. Other than noisy neighbors, the rest of the night was uneventful.

Sunday-June 8, 2008

  had the "lovely" continental breakfast, well ½ a very weird bagel and a glass of OJ.

  Checked out & sat in the lobby on the internet on my laptop until the shuttle came in.

Cruising

The ship – Carnival Valor is HUGE.  My cabin is much nicer than the cheapest one available that I reserved.  I went to lunch on the Lido deck and had a margarita at the "sail away "party.  There was music and dancing and had the opportunity to work on my Soulja Boy dance.

 Explored the ship to get myself oriented to where things are. By the time that was over my luggage had arrived in my cabin and I quickly unpacked and it was dinner time.  I wore my red dress with the big white flowers – looks kind of tropical.

My dinner table mates are very nice – young couple. Carlos and Wishshonda. They met in the Army – she is now out, but he is still in and home on leave after a year in Iraq. After his 30 days leave he has to go back to the hell hole.  There are several men on the ship who are on leave.  I was very impressed with them and their ambition, intelligence and courage.  Respect for both of them serving in the Army and serving in Iraq.

Later I went to a schedules "singles/solo passenger"   gathering, and I was the only solo person there, everyone else showed up in pairs.   I'm feeling a bit like I am on Noah's ark and every one is 2X2 except for me.  Considering going to the "friends of Dorothy" gathering next – maybe I'll meet someone there…   J

 

Monday – day at sea June 9, 2008

Went to the obligatory "talk" about the ports, sat on the deck in the sun for a while, and looked through the shipboard shops.

 I wanted to pamper myself so I got a manicure and pedicure.

It was formal night.

I wore my black simple V neck dress with a tie just under the bust line and my pearl jewelry.   Before dinner went to the "Captain's party" had champagne, and an hors duerves.

After dinner I went to the show to see Phat Kat and really liked him.

I was feeling pretty lonely, thinking about the significance of the date tomorrow, I had several of the   drink of the day specials – yellow bird. Ended up drunk and going to bed early.

 

    Tuesday - June 10, 2008

Grand Cayman

Took the Jeep 4x4 tour of the Barker National Park, Hell, and to a lunch by the beach.  Jeep

The national park was wild and beautiful. Apparently many of the trees were severely damaged by hurricane   Ivan 2 years ago and are just now recovering.  Beautiful flowers and vines blooming, the ocean, white beaches.

The tour guide was native to Jamaica and a riot. 

Reggae

While we were riding to the park he was telling me about his family. How his kid's mother has asthma, and how bad it gets and she needs to go to the hospital for nebulizer treatments. And his mama had asthma and had died from it. Or so he thought. His mother had died fairly recently and when he went home his brother pulled him aside telling him "daddy killed mama" His brother had a dream in which his mother told him to go upstairs and look in her purse and when he did there was a note that Daddy had told her he was going to kill her and that since he was police he could get away with it and the note said to talk to her brother. She had called him right before she died and told him her husband was going to kill her.  Apparently the cause of death was listed as asphyxiation, from the asthma, but the family believes it was asphyxiation from daddy.  To top of the whole story he says Daddy paid off someone to move the body by putting money in the casket for the person to take the body out and make it disappear. Apparently it was a closed casket funeral and his sister was begging to see mama one last time but daddy would not allow viewing and had the casket nailed shut. Quite a story…

I have pictures of my visit to hell – I had been there before,  the rock formations are cool, but otherwise it is pretty much a tacky tourist trap.

The lunch was grilled hamburgers or hot dogs, chicken and assorted salads.  The hamburger was actually tough and dry.  Didn't really get to swim as lightening was starting on both sides of us and I didn't feel like it was safe to go for a swim in lightening conditions.  When we   got to the pier, it was pouring rain for a while, then stopped and cleared up.

Thunder

 

Did a little shopping, back to the ship to get ready for dinner.  Before dinner I went to the spa for a fabulous massage, hand, foot and scalp conditioning treatment and facial. Very relaxing lying there – I could look out over the ocean.  I think I fell asleep. It was pouring rain again when I woke up.  I really just wanted to lie there for the rest of the day, but had to go get ready for dinner.

Wore black capris with black silky camisole and chiffon black and cream shirt

  The after dinner show was a juggler – Manuel Zuniga, and the comedian Allyn Ball, who also did a midnight adults only show. It was filthy but funny; I laughed so hard my belly hurt.  I needed a laugh.

 

Juggling

 

 

Wednesday –  June 11

Roatan Island, Honduras

Scuba day!!!

Roatan is so lush and beautiful. It is minimally developed, no tacky fast food places etc. There is extreme poverty, and tourism is there lifeline for income at this point, so I expect changes are coming as it becomes more developed. The cruise line is investing many millions building piers and other ship accommodations.  I want to go back. Went to a resort called St Anthony's Key for the dive. Very nice resort.  They gave a quick review and then took us out on the boat, Serge – the very handsome Swiss dive instructor was my guide with 4 of us in his group. The reef is lush and beautiful with coral, fish, and anemones, saw a big crab. Unfortunately my flash on my underwater camera I purchased on the ship this morning did not work so   don't know what will come out or not. (Found out later the battery was dead.) It was a beautiful diving experience and felt SO good to have the tanks on again and be under the sea looking at the true beauty down there.  

Scuba Diving

 

The dive instructor told us he had moved to Roatan 2 years ago from Switzerland and that he does not miss the cold and snow, he only misses the chocolate.

On the down side, we waited for over an hour for our transportation back to the ship, so didn't get to the port area until it was last call to get on the ship in time to sail so didn't get to do anything else.  Then to top it all off someone stole my Carnival towel right from next to me, and I will have to pay for it at $22. I confronted the couple who took it and they absolutely would not relinquish it. Other than knock them down and kick the crap out of them I just didn't know what to do.

I wore my white capris, tortoise shell belt, white and tan tank with a white lightweight sweater to dinner, along with my white and tan multi-strand necklace – and got my picture taken in it with a beach back drop. Decided drinking was not in my best interest so stuck with diet coke.

 

 

After dinner music was Motown sounds with Jerome Dabney.   He was VERY good, and did a killer Stevie Ray Wonder at the very end.  Unfortunately he was singing all the Motown romantic lovey-dovey songs and that was hard…  Love the music – left me feeling emotional though.

 

  

 

Thursday – June 12
Belize

Horseback Riding

I went on a horse back riding in the rain forest tour.  The wait for the bus to get to Bacab Eco Park was long, but finally we were on out way.  When we got there found out they had an unexpected ship in port – probably due to some rough weather in the region, and did not have enough horses to go around, so we had to re arrange the outing. They offered us a free butterfly tour, but when they said no mosquito repellant on the butterfly tour I soon changed my mind. This is a rainforest, and it is rainy season and the mosquitoes were in swarms.  I immediately slathered myself in their super strength repellant and went to the pool area – which was gorgeous. Water falls, and a water slide that came down the water fall and into the pool.  Then Lunch – traditional Belizean food - rice and beans cooked in coconut milk, spicy chicken, fried plantains. Mmmm….. The rice & beans were so good.

Then off to horses. After we were matched up with our horses we sent out on the trail. I had an unusual saddle – I think maybe Spanish style with a large flat horn.  More beautiful lush tropical scenery than imaginable.  Flowers, vines, howler monkey in the trees, birds calling, butterflies, an incredible experience.  My horse decided to get ornery on me and wanted to turn around and follow another group back to the beginning and I had to turn him around 3 times before he obeyed me. Once I thought he was going to throw me off.   Once we were on the right path and he understood I meant business he was better.  I quite enjoyed when we got to trot some and I didn't want it to ever end.

After wards – back to the port area and did a little shopping and got a beautiful shell necklace and earring.

It was the second formal night. Wore my sexy white dress with my new jewelry. I had photos taken on the grand staircase. I felt like quite the model with the photographer.

The after dinner show was a Las Vegas Revue dancing and music type show – a tribute to the 80's.  Flashdance, Madonna, Michael Jackson (Thriller), Cindy Lauper etc. It was fun.  Lots of old memories.

We also had the midnight buffet – with carved ice dragon and amazingly beautiful desserts, and decorations.

 

 

Friday – June 13
 Cozumel  Quad Racer 

I woke up very tired. I had gone to bed around 1 am. Just as I started to drift off to sleep the announcements on the PA started. "Will passenger Ashley XXX please call the purser's information desk immediately". The announcements were approximately every ½ hour throughout the night. The final announcement was that "the missing passenger has been found and is safe and sound.  Sorry for any inconvenience, you can all go back to sleep now. "

I looked at my clock. 7:30 am…….

I went on an ATV in the jungle and beach excursion. Tour guides were Luis and Victor (the Mayan Gigalo) Victor took every opportunity to be in pictures with me and assist me in every way since I was the only "single" woman there. The ATV's were just a blast. I got so muddy and filthy it was hilarious. Racing down paths, through mud, water, rocks bumps etc. One guy rolled his ATV over and into a barb wire fence – he was pretty cut up.  We saw a sink hole that was used as a sacrificial pool by the Mayans.  It goes down 65 feet to whirlpool effect that sucks the sacrifice through to another sinkhole and eventually out to the ocean. The water is brackish – a mix of sea and fresh water.

Also saw caves used as protection from hurricanes by the Mayans.

  When we got to the beach after I attempted to shower   off the mud, there were outdoor showers. I tried my best to scrub off, but the dirt was not budging.

Snorkel

Then to the beach, snorkeling – guided out and saw a yellow ray, ( the guide was calling it a jello ray – took me a bit to figure out what he meant) spotted eel, puffer fish, anemones,  sea urchins and a zillion angel fish and parrotfish, tiny solid  bright blue fish,  and tiny blues with yellow fins and tail.

I was still dirty after the approximately 1 hour of snorkeling, so I tried another shower. Still dirty.

The Cozumel beach was super white, not really like sand though, more crushed shells and coral.  It was pretty, but hard to walk on barefoot – rough and sharp.

Lunch on the patio by the beach and then back to port all too soon.

More shopping, bought presents for kids.

I went back to my cabin and thoroughly scrubbed myself in the shower with lots of soap and a rag to get off more of the dirt. It was so embedded in my nails and nail polish I had to take off all my nail polish to get the rest of the dirt from there.

Dinner was casual, but wore my black dress with the white abstract design.  After dinner the show was a ventriloquist – Jerry Goodspeed. His puppets were quite mouthy and ornery.  Then comedian Jim Brick was funny.

 

 

There was a midnight buffet on the lido deck, but after the show I went up, got a juice and went to bed early – midnight (that's early?)

Saturday – June 14
day at sea

I slept in – til 730 – then laid in bed for another hour before fully coming to life. I am going to need a vacation from my vacation.  A quick shower (still finding traces of dirt from the ATV adventure) and to the lido deck to eat breakfast outside by the pool and relax with a book in the shade. I am burnt from snorkeling and my back is sore. It will be a pretty well quiet day - packing and relaxing.

Lunch on the Lido deck – and the chocolate extravaganza buffet.  I had a piece of white chocolate cake, took only a couple bites, and was very good but too rich. Also a chocolate orange pocket – ate a bite of it, a chocolate wonton, and a piece of pineapple dipped in the chocolate fountain. A storm came up during the buffet and crowds came in from the outside deck by the water slides which is the "family area". The other outside deck area is adults only and has a retractable glass roof, but not a chair to be found out there.

Later I was wandering around and found a deck I had not noticed before – of the American lounge on each side was a smaller deck-very quiet and peaceful. I went out on the portside (left for ye landlubbers) and sat in a lounge chair. There was only one couple at the far end and a crew member hanging out at the other end. I was quietly contemplating the beauty of the ocean, the deep blue lapis lazuli color of the water and pale aquamarine nearer the boat where the water was stirred up by the boat with occasional white caps. As I looked out I thought I saw a small boat a way out from the ship. At first I thought it might be fishermen, but then thought "why would they be fishing out there in such a small boat?" I thought maybe it was my imagination. But the more I looked the more sure I felt it was a boat with people in it and I saw some flashes of light from the boat.  A few minutes later there was an announcement that there was a small boat sighted and a distress signal received and that we were turning the boat around to approach the small boat to give assistance.  Several crew members came out to the deck I was on at that time.  I talked to a couple of them and they were sure and in agreement that it was Cubans trying to get to the states. They said it is not uncommon to see them in small boats, no food or water, once found them unconscious in a boat.   Think about it, a small boat with 7 humans, inadequate water, inadequate food, heading to the US through shark infested waters during hurricane season.  And we have had some rough weather this week. How desperate are they? The ship was not allowed to pick them up according to coast guard rules, but was required to give assistance. We pulled fairly close to them, they rowed over, and we opened the tender door, and handed down food and water and waited for the coast guard to arrive – who took them back to Cuba, where they are likely in jail at this time.  I guess I am a bleeding heart liberal at the very core of me and I feel very sorry for them. I think everybody deserves a chance, and I wish I knew their story, could talk to them and learn what drove them to take these desperate chances.

After dinner went to the carnival "Legends" show which feature passengers as Madonna, Brittany Spears, Elvis, Ricky Martin, etc.  The cruise director did Dolly Parton and he was hilarious as were a couple other crew members who played Sonny and Cher. Went to the midnight show, Jim Brick – the comedian who did his adults only show.  It was OK but not nearly as good as Allyn Ball.

Took one last walk around the ship, up to the lido deck, to say "goodbye" then had a cookie & a brownie, and went back to my cabin to sleep.

 

 

Sunday- June 15

Departure (or as they call it - disembarkation)

Took the tour bus to South Beach for the Art Deco Tour.  The tour was disappointing – just the bus breezing on by while and 18 year old told a minimal history of the area.  Couldn't even take pictures as there were no stops and the windows were too reflective to take anything like a decent photo. Then they dropped us off for 3 hours on Ocean Avenue. Now this started the interesting part. First I walked across Ocean Blvd, to the beach, took off my sandals and rolled up my pants and waded in. The water felt so good, and the sand was beautiful, and the whole beach was lovely – wished I had not packed my swimsuit into my checked luggage & had put it in my carry on so I could swim. Stayed there a little while, then on to the next thing I wanted to see.  We had breezed past a Holocaust Memorial that looked intriguing, so got a taxi and went back to that to look closer, take photos and read the wall. It is a large hand, with victims carved into the forearm and the number tattoo carved into the arm as well.  The large statue is backed by curving marble walls with all the known names of Holocaust victims engraved in, as well as pictures and a history of the events.  As I touched the walls with the names I became very emotional, tears welling up in my eyes. There was a picture of bodies being pushed into the ovens at Dachau. I was reminded of when I visited Dachau when I was in Germany.  I had entered a building with no knowledge of what it was. I felt cold and had a very overwhelming grief feeling. Later when I watched to movie about Dachau in the museum there, I realized the building that gave me such a sad feeling was where thousands of bodies had been burned in the ovens.  I am not a "spiritual "person, but I felt the sadness and grief in that building and I will NEVER forget that experience.  It is so sad how people can be so full of hate and anger towards others based on their race or religion.

After that I walked through the Botanical Garden next to the memorial. Very lush and beautiful. The flowers were just blooming everywhere. Also had an orchid area, with many blooming orchids.

Then took a Taxi back to Ocean Avenue, to the Casablanca Hotel where the movie by the same name was filmed. They had a café in front on the porch and sidewalk with small tables – white table cloths and umbrellas  etc. I had some breakfast and OJ, and sat on the outer porch people watching for a while. Then I did go inside and take pictures of the bar area which has been preserved in the old way.

By the time I had done that it was time to slowly start walking back to the meeting point for the bus to the   airport. 

 

Now I am sitting a the airport with hours  until my flight home...

Pouty

 

Back to the real world.

Monday June 23 - I am home - recovered from my  vacation and back to the reality of laundry, cleaning, yard work and JOB.

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Empowerment
on June 7, 2008 9:11 pm
I did the 30 mile ride On May 25th. It was phenominal. the Lakeshore Drive was so beautiful at sunrise and I felt so overwhelmed with gratitude to be so lucky to be able to do this - to physically be able to do it.   I know I had tears on my face at one point - tears of joy.  Adding in biking from my hotel to the starting point of the event, and then to the train station and home from the train station in Elgin it was 40 miles that day.  I felt so proud of myself.

6 years ago I joined the health club hoping to get in better shape for surgery. At that time I would be out of breath climbing one flight of stairs. 5-10 minutes on the treadmill were difficult.  I never imagined I would be where I am now. 

I have worked hard for it. I am lucky and blessed to have had surgery, it helped me get the weight off so I could exercise more and get fitter, but I have put in the hours at the gym to make it happen.  When I took my personal training classes we did fitness testing and I was at the top of the charts in almost everything, and off the charts on some of the tests for a woman my age.  The only one I did average on was a running test - I was to run a mile, but I had to walk it, my hip  has damage (torn cartilege and now calcifications in the tendons around the joint) from the over weight time and it hurts  a LOT if I run. 

I cannot do high impact  stuff,  and that bugs me, but I do anything else. I can get my cardio on my bike or the ellyptical.

I hope I can inspire someone else - to know that they can do it. No matter where you are starting - you can do it. It takes just 1 step at a time.
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The diet and nutrition and exercise info I have posted is from my own personal research and it is how I manage my own health. You should determine your own diet, exercise and health maintenance decisions based on your own doctors, dieticians or health care providers recommendations and your own judgment. What works for me may not be the best plan for you and your own medical history and conditions. I only accept responsibility for my own health and no one else’s.


My info was sent by my Dr. on 8/1/2002 to my insurance, I called today and BCBS has not received it yet, but hopefully will by the end of the week.




About me
I started my wls journey at 41 years old. I had fought with my weight ever since puberty. As a teenager I was called Fats by my loving family at 125 # and (almost) 5' tall. I have now dieted my self up to > 260 pounds. I am a registered nurse. I work in postpartum and NICU. My hobbies include reading, gardening, cooking, telling jokes, photography, scuba diving, and collecting blue willow china. I am married and have 3 children and 2 grandchildren. I love cooking and baking, here is a picture of the cakes I made for my daughters wedding.

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A picture of me and my husband in March 2002, about a month before I started researching WLS

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My husband and I met when I was 13 & he was 15, on vacation in Florida. I knew he was one of the sweetest people I had ever met, and his sister tells me the day he met me - he came home and said he had met the girl he was going to marry. The only problem, I lived in Indiana and he was near Chicago about 185 miles away. We wrote letters, he spent thousands on phone bills, and we visited after he got his drivers license. Married June 10, 1978 at the ages of 17 and 19.  I never dated much other than Mike and he is still my sweetheart. He has stood by me thru thick and thin. I have not always appreciated him as much as I should, but I do know I am a lucky woman to have someone who is as caring as him.

August 1976 - me and my Sweetheart for life
My family  called me  "fats" at a great big 115 pounds. And I wish I were so fat now. Gee - I wonder where I learned to have a poor self esteem and not ever feel like I was "good enough"?

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Image hosted by Photobucket.comMy Wedding Day June 10, 1978


My hope in having WLS  was that I could get off my blood pressure meds,  to be healthier, decrease pain in my back and Achilles, and lower my cholesterol and heart attack risk. On the lighter side, I wanted  to be able to do things I was not comfortable or able to do,  such as horseback riding, going on the Batman ride at Great America, and to have more energy to run after my grandbabies. I know it sounds fluffy but I also I wanted to be able  to buy prettier clothes that on the regular size racks. I also wanted to never again hear  how I have such a pretty face (with the implicit "too bad you are a fat ass").

My Doctors
both encouraged me to think about gastric bypass surgery and are VERY supportive . 

Previous diets ~ AKA: ask me to detail my failures
Weight watchers -12 #
Slim fast - Numerous times lose some weight , gain back more
Fit for life? (weight loss program @ GSH) - 20 #
Diet program at Sherman Hospital - 20 #
Fen - Phen - 18#
Diet pills (I don't remember what From OB - after birth of 1st child) lost a few #
OTC diet pills i.e. dexatrim, herbal weight loss, chromium picolate(?spelling) etc
Cabbage soup diet - few pounds until I was sick of smelling like cabbage gas
Other various diets with a little loss and a lot of gain afterwards
hypnosis - no noticeable effect at all
joined Chicago health club... twice.

Medications taken pre-op / dosage/ reason 
1. Allopurinol 300 mg Q day Elevated Uric acid in urine causing numerous episodes of Kidney stones
2. Celebrex 200 mg BID NSAID for arthritis pain and Achilles tendonitis
3. Wellbutrin 150 mg Q day Depression
4. Baby ASA 85 mg Q day Recommended by Dr. for heart attack prevention due to Hypertension and other risk factors
5. 400 mg Vit. E, and Centrum
6. Ziac 5mg Q Day Hypertension

meds post op
1. Vitamins, Iron, Calcium
I did restart the Wellbutrin a couple years out.

 Other concerns - progression from pre op / to post op almost 1 year later / 2 years post op
1. Knee pain / now rare / occasional
2. severe nearly crippling R Achilles pain/ 80% improved/ rare to have any pain here
3. hypertension / gone, no meds bp running 105/70 / excellent
4. irregular / heavy periods / regular, still heavy-damn that per menopause / no more periods
5. back pain, sciatica with hip and leg pain / gone / still gone
6. wheezing ? asthmatic episode lasting several months last winter requiring intervention with steroids (Medrol dosepack) and Maxair inhaler. / absolutely no more wheezing / perfect
7. Wheezing and/or shortness of breath with exertion such as climbing stairs / I run them now, several flights without stopping / even better
8. Loud snoring reported by husband raising question of sleep apnea, I wake with headaches frequently /no more snoring!!! or headaches in the morning / same
9. Family history of heart attacks, father died in 30's from heart attack / -115 # my risk factors are now minimal / -135 # I am even better
10. My cholesterol is 240+ ? / my cholesterol is 123 /cholesterol 135, excellent
11. ? GERD - sometimes I have a lot of coughing if I lie down after eating / not any more / no problem
12. History of numerous kidney stones / this one is staying with me/ none in the past year
13. Occasional migraine type headaches / 1 in the past year/ none
14. I am not yet diabetic, but it runs in the family / risk factors greatly reduced / with continued weight loss and exercise I am less likely than ever
15. carpal tunnel syndrome bilaterally / gone / still gone

16. father died in his 30's from a heart attack-from high cholesterol, and it is supposedly a hereditary condition. he was "big" / this history is still there, I am no longer "big" myself, and my risk factors are so greatly reduced / I am still low risk with my reduced weight, cholesterol and blood pressure

RNY Gastric Bypass, 9/25/2002 weight at 260#  at 4'11"  my BMI was in the super morbid obese range
by Dr. Eric Schlessinger at the Bariatric treatment center in Belvedere IL.

But, This is just part of my story and it is starting in the middle.    There is so much more. My gastric bypass was a new beginning, and the start of quite a journey.  Everything that happened before is also an important part of who I am. as well as the changes I have made, challenges  I have faced,  and the things I have learned as I travel down this path of life. I will share as much of my story as I can.