7 weeks post op

Nov 23, 2010

I don't know if I can formulate my thoughts very well but I don't want my 7 week update to slip by me.

Things have been challenging this last week. After I stopped eating dairy I decided to narrow down dairy to see if I could tolerate some types of dairy. I tried milk in sf pudding, no problem. I tried just milk, no problem. I tired Greek yogurt, no problem. So I think it is pretty much just cheese. 

So I have really been following the rules and staying within guidelines so I don't have the horrible upper gastric pain, gas, bloating, and dry heaving that I thought was caused by cheese. 

On Saturday I had a perfectly reasonable 3 oz meal of tofu. An hour later I took a drink of water and all Hell broke loose. I was in the same condition mentioned above, beside myself in pain. I walked and walked and tried to work it out but then I knew I was going to be sick. At first it was just air, then fluid and I felt better...for about 1 minute. Then dinner was coming up and as I was going through this I just got phenomenally pissed off. I just threw it all up out of anger and frustration. I was so angry. I am doing what I was told to do and it is getting harder not easier. Angry puking...that's a new one for me. 

The next day I went strictly to soups, but I felt defeated and disappointed. I wonder often if I made the right decision. I always wanted the sleeve and ended up being talked into RNY. I have to make my peace with this because it is done. Done. Done. There is no going back.

I eat two meals most days. I don't have enough time in the day to get in three. In the mornings I really don't feel like eating but I am really thirsty, so I try to get enough water in before I take a single bite. I usually end up eating my first meal around 1 pm. I have been much more motivated to get protein through foods because I really dislike the protein drinks right now. I do have one I can tolerate so I have that every day. At this point though, I can't eat enough to make the food proteins bring me up to 60-80 per day.

I just bought some protein bars to take on our trip to Disneyland next week. I am going to try one today. They are called Pure Protein and come in three flavors from Costco. We will see if those work for me when I am on my feet all day. I am only afraid of getting overly tired or getting dehydrated, so I just want a simple plan, if possible. 

I don't really have my energy back yet. Some days I have pretty good energy and other nada. Everyday I am colder than I ever have been. I know that my protein stores and iron levels are low. I am very good about taking most of my supplements. I try. Sometimes I wait too long for that last calcium and it comes down to the evening calcium or the nighttime iron and I have to go with the iron.

Another thing I have NOT done is exercise regularly. The first few weeks I was good about getting out and walking, but in the last few weeks I have done only house work and not much of that. I will be getting a lot of exercise at Disneyland and I hope that helps jump start me. Also, all of our hotels have gyms so maybe I will show up in one of those. Boy, doesn't that sound like a firm commitment?? LOL!

As far as food is concerned I am most interested in whether or not I can eat protein based foods. So I have successfully eaten chicken, ground up pork (repeated though), ground turkey, turkey lunch meat (very thinly sliced), and some beef (cut very thinly in a moist sauce). I am happy about that. I had a very bad experience with lunch meat when I first tried it and from then on I have torn it up and added it to turkey soup, which is much easier to eat.

I am on OH.com daily and I still wonder if I am doing it right or not. There are so many different methods and opinions. Sometimes I feel very afraid that I am unknowingly doing something wrong. Paranoia I guess. This is so new still that I don't trust myself.

I have lost 28 pounds and I am happy about that. Standing is easier and I can stand longer. I can pick up and hold our 17 month old now, just not a lot. I can bend over and put him in his crib at night which makes me very happy. I can chase him a little bit, but he has way more energy than me and I get really tired by the end of the day. I am wearing a smaller size and enjoying my new PJs. My necklace is longer and my rings are loose. I know I am getting smaller. I am not hungry in the typical sense and I am grateful for that because it would be so much harder if I were. Finally, I still have my hair, for a while at least.

Peace, Daisy

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