I don't know where to go from here

Sep 02, 2010

I'm feeling frustrated and unsure of what direction to head.  I'm seriously considering seeing a dietician and perhaps a mental health professional that deals strictly with eating disorders.  I got my first denial from my insurance for prectification for my VSG.  Cried my eyes out when I got it.  I didn't want to believe that I wasn't going easily get the surgery I so desperately wanted.  A few weeks after I had started my second request for insurance approval, my husband drops the "B" bomb on me.  He told me he wanted to TTC!  As much as part of me really wants another baby, the other part wants to say "F you and what you want, it's my body!".  I have been drinking slimfast and a few other protein rich drinks and have lost a few pounds.  I still feel like I'm not sure which direstion to head.  I really would love to have another baby next year but, I know I HAVE to lose at least 40 pounds to be in a healthier wieght range.  Oh! And to top things all off, my surgical group will not refund my $495 fee becuase I completed my pre op requirements.  So it's either I get surgery or loose almost $500.  I know it's not quite that black and white but it kind of is.  Sigh......

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