One! One Week! Ha ha ha!

Apr 14, 2010

Well today is my one week bandiversarry.  I am finding myself getting sad that I can't have food.  I suppose it is mostly because food is something I used to enjoy and now I can't have it.  Not only can I not have it, but I'm sorta worried about the fact that I threw up medicine one day and bean soup I ate too quickly another day... so I've resigned myself to wait until my dr okays real food, even soft food.  Plus he's out of town so I get to wait three more weeks to see him.  So I have to wait a long time and I am having a hard time getting all my calories in without food.  I guess it's not very enticing to drink a shake again.  

Plus I got on my Wii and it encourages you to do you body test every day even though I had intended only to weigh in once a week.  It has said I lost at least a half pound everyday, but today it said I gained two pounds.  I was so upset!  I keep reminding myself that it's probably water weight or girlie time weight... but it's still like... here I am not eating anything and probably getting in about 600 calories since the surgery and not even losing weight?  How can that even be possible?  I used to eat more than 600 calories in a meal!  Oh well, I decided even if the Wii wants me to, I'm skipping the body test except on Saturdays, my weigh in day.  That way I won't have to deal with the small normal fluctuations making me sadder.  Missing food is bad enough! 

However, I do feel even better, just itchy from dryness and healing.  So, I"m going to just keep reminding myself why I got the band.  I want to be healthy; I want to have babies; I want to fit in a real wedding dress (plus sized is fine, just a real one), and I want to walk around without people acting like I"m some sort of circus freak.  All those things are worth the sadness of missing a little food and the ups and downs of weight loss.  Yay for those things I want... you will be mine!  Today is but a blip in the long road.  :) 

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