Protein Shake Hell

Apr 07, 2010

It has been a very rough 10 days and I am not proud to admit that I have fallen off the wagon a few times already. I NEVER realized how hard 14 days of pure liquid would be. I have tried 12 different flavors of "shake" and I dislike pretty much the majority of them. The only one I really came to love was the Double Fudge Crunch and now I can't find that flavor ANYWHERE. I am wondering if maybe I can switch to Slim Fast drinks instead. Does that work the same? I've had Slim Fast before and I think they taste much better than the current Spiru-tein and Designer Whey I am using.

Another annoyance is how much I am going to have to pay to get the rest of my prescriptions filled. $178. Wow. Dr. Williams gave me a list of scripts and told me to take them to the military hospital to get them filled. Well all they would fill is the Zofran! I still need Urso, Prevacid, Vicodin and Vitamin E capsules. So that's just great. Walgreen's quoted me at $178 for the rest of them, under my current insurance.

Despite cheating on the liquid diet, I've lost 7 pounds in the last 10 days. I don't really know how that happened. I am SO PARANOID that my liver will be too big and the surgery won't be able to be done. I honestly keep having nightmares about that. It's my own damn fault for not sticking to the diet the way I should have.....I am so ashamed of myself. To punish myself and hopefully put things back on track, I put myself back on liquids 100% yesterday. I am hoping that 6 days of fasting on JUST protein shakes and water will shrink my liver enough for surgery. God, I hope it works. I am so stupid for cheating on it.


Pre-Op appointment is on Friday. I have to do 2 hours of who knows what. I know that I am meeting with the anesthesiologist, which I am actually pretty happy about. I have learned from past surgeries that if you have any concerns about the side effects of the general anesthesia, its always best to work it out with them beforehand. Last time I went under, I woke up feeling pretty great because they made sure I didn't have any nasty side effects. I am still paranoid about my stupid liver being in the way so pray that this all works out for me. I will update after I've had my Pre-Op.

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