First OA meeting

Jan 09, 2012

Well the earache is still here but it's better.

I went to OA tonight. It was at this really cute vietnamese catholic church! Thier was even a nun there but she wasn't vietnamese. I know have to do something to work on the inside....I feel so raw and exposed. It's like I had this surgery and now everyone knows that I have this huge food issue and I have no willpower and how pathetic my life has become. But truthfully, they probably already knew that as they watched my weight yo-yo and saw me graze and binge-eat. I stopped by work today to work on FMLA papers. It was wierd, I know I haven't been gone that long but I feel like I've undergone this huge thing and no one has really acknowledged it. Which leads me to remember how much I don't like my job.

I buy in to the OA thing - sorta....and that's only because I work at a drug and alcohol abuse treatment center that is focused in the 12 steps. But it's kinda scary to go to this meeting that's meant to help with food issues and see a bunch of overweight people. But some of them did have some peace about them, so I suppose I will go to a meeting tomorrow and see how it goes.

Maybe I'll find a new job before I have to go back to work :) 

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