just a tool

Jan 31, 2012

I'm going to start this by saying that I really did legitimately pass my psych eval.....I was so excited about having surgery. For 6 months everything was, "once I have my surgery" or "after my surgery"...ect. Guess what life is still the SAME. I am changing, but the circumstances that surround me aren't. I have lost about 30 lbs....I still have quite a ways to go but I really thought that after my surgery the things that cause me stress in my life would change ie; husband would be more affectionate, co-workers would take me seriously...ect.
I also thought the weight would just be flying off. I feel like I wake up every morning and the first thing that pops in my mind is, "am I skinny yet?" I check the mirror to see what kind of a "tummy day" I am having. Does it look bigger? Is it smaller? Are my love handles shrinking? Is thier more loose skin? Then I step on the scale....this week it hasn't started my day off very well. I had some struggles this week but 99% of the time I stayed on plan. I had difficulty tracking my food when I was at a family deal and I ate more than I intended. So....tomorrow is weigh in wednesday....wish me luck!

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