Where's all my vices???

Jan 10, 2012

Ok....happy not to be eating like a maniac....really really super duper happy that I'm not smoking and I don't have the urge too, I'm grateful that I'm not craving diet pepsi all day....but I really miss the bathtub. I have to wait until I'm 4 weeks post-op and tomorrow will be 2 weeks post-op.

Crazy thing... on 12/30 I came home from the hospital weighing 121lbs.....today when I got on my scale I was 201.8!!!! WHAT???? This is actually working.... I hate to admit it but I am actually kinda a "debbie downer". Thier was a part of me that thought other people may get these really fabulous results but that probably won't happen for you Sabrina...well guess when I'm getting fabulous results, and not just because I've lost 19.2lbs in 2 week! I'm think about food but not to the point where I'm having to white knuckle it like I honestly thought I'd have to. I'm still a NON-SMOKER!!!!! I'm not scheming about trying to get pop into my diet!!!

I'm still scared and thier is still fear that maybe my results won't be great or maybe this feeling won't last but you know what....today I'm just grateful for how these 2 weeks have gone and I'm not going to project into the future. Thank you GOD for getting me to where I am today....even though I still have a LONG way to go....removing the urge to smoke is huge!!!

Last cigarette 11/17

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