Wow! Look where I am now!

Mar 10, 2010

I just read my last post.  4 months out...I was such a baby at that point.  Here I am, 110 pounds gone and I've been below goal for months.  I'm not sick anymore and don't doubt for a minute that I did the right thing.  I never want to go back again.

I still have this voice in my head and it forever yells at me.  Eat Eat Eat!  Sometimes, it such a longing that I can't stand it.  This is what a true addict feels like.  I think I'll always be fighting that voice.  I just can't let it trip me up and slowly gain back the insulation I've piled on year after year after year.  I see that I'm letting sugar back into my life.  It makes me sick now but I don't want to let my body get used to it again.  That will truly be my downfall.  I know myself, I really do.  I make a vow to myself right now to not let that happen.  I will stop letting sugar rule my life.  I will not get bites here and there.  I will not buy yummy camels at the market that I know I can't resist.  I will keep skinny cows out of my freezer!  I know better, really I do.

When I eat something and still have that food longing, I must realize that food will never fill what aches.  

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