Day before Pre-op Diet (3 weeks to go)

Sep 11, 2011

I'm ready!  I'm psyched!  Yet--I'm living this “last day” before the diet with apprehension.   I’m not sure that this is normal…

I understand the all the procedures of pre-op preparedness, the proceedings of the operation and post –op dietary rules.  I have attended all the diet classes, post op hospital courses, support groups and have taken notes, and studied.  I can describe the anatomy and physiology of the digestive system (including accessory organs).  Yet, I still feel “unprepared”—like I’m missing something, “but what is it that I’m missing?”

This has to be normal; I’ve read it time and time again in other peoples blogs, why am I feeling like a nut?  I’m cleaning my house like crazy, organizing things that have nothing to do with the surgery or my body or even my health for that matter.  It’s like I’m “nesting!”    I’m not expecting a new born baby into my home….am I?  Maybe I am, maybe it’s me that’s being “reborn” into a new life style.  Ewww…. corny!

Sure I’ve had 2 years to mentally prepare for this event and I’ve been actively preparing for the last 6 months, but now it’s time – and I’m freaking out in my head! I’m throwing fits inside my noggin, but no one knows that I just want to run away, as far and as fast as I can.   It’s like having cold feet before a wedding.  I do want the surgery, I do …I do!  But, I’m scared—“of what?”

Although I’ve gone to the psychologist to get a psychological clearance for this operation, I don’t think I’m mentally prepared for the “new me”.  How does one prepare for this event?  This is life changing! – I should be happy—“I should be wearing a smile on my face – I’m not.    

I think if this “anxiety” becomes an issue, I might have to pay a visit with my psychologist ---maybe it’s normal 

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