Ashley A.

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Hey ya'll so im in Florida for spring break with my BFF. It was about a 15 hour drive which turned into even longer when we got stuck in traffic for 2 hrs..and went approximately 4 milesduring that time. It sucked so bad..anyways I have been eating horribly which isnt good. I did get another fill on the 17th so I do now have some restriction but its weird, I get stuck super easy and everything so I know to slow it down and take smaller bites but I'm still not getting full quick? It doesnt make sense to me...Ugh..I dont know anymore. I havent been able to sleep lately thats why I decided to write a blog before bed. It may just be becaue I'm away from home. The trip has been fun though..I have been feeling like crap everyday though..pretty much from the TOM and eating like crap..so I'm gonna try to be good tomorrow. Its just so hard when you are on vacation. We haven't really done much, we are just staying at his mom's near Tampa so we have to drive about an hour to get to the beach. I was actually a lot more comfortable being at the beach than I thought I would be. I feel like my band gives me some type of self confidence...I dont really know what it is. lol. I wish I could be that comfortable all the time. I have some hot bathing suit pics to post though...lol. I saw the ocean for the first time in my life today. I have never even been to a beach until today so that was definitely fun! I got a little burnt though. The sand was death though. It was so windy...so sand was getting in our eyes and everywhere on us pretty much. I kept rubbing my eyes like an idiot so that made it even worse...but I have been very emotional lately and I dont think its really from my period because I usually have all my emotional breakdowns the week before which I had those too...lol. so I dont know whats going on with me. Everything is just so complicated...One thing I did realize being here is that I'm going crazy not being able to weigh myself...I mean CRAZY. I thought I would be okay but I hate the fact that I can't see what that number is when I wake up every morning so thats the first thing I'm doing when I get home is weighing my ass..lol. I seriously need scale rehab. lol. I'm addicted!!!  I told my friend I should have brought mine but that would have just been weird..Well I'm falling asleep. Gnite everyone...

Hey everyone, so I'm at work bored to death...I just wanted to give everyone an update...I went for my 3rd fill on Tuesday..she finally was able to find it in the office. This means I'm not too fat anymore..lol or she just learned how to do her job!!! So I was super upset that day because I was an hour late from work. but I currently have 7 cc's or 7.5 cc's I guess when I sat up another .5 cc went in so she doesn't know if its in the band or just somewhere in my body. Based on the amount of restriction I have I would say just the 1 cc. I came to work and ate a pudding I know it was dumb of me since I was supposed to be on liquids but I packed lunch not even thinking I was going to be getting a fill, so a pudding had to do. I felt restriction as soon as I ate it and went back to my desk about 10 minutes  later I wasnt feeling so great so I walked to the bathroom and it just came right out..I vomited. I was like are you serious?? A pudding? How could I be that tight just from 1 cc's so I decided to go home and just stay strictly on liquids the next 2 days..and now I'm fine so I think I just ate too soon maybe? IDK. I have noticed some restriction though. I am satisfied about after eating a little bit over a cup so thats good. Definitely an improvement on the amount I could eat.

I'm ready for this day to be over. I have sooo much to do. I leave for Florida at 4 am..which will turn into 6 am knowing me lol. I have already packed most of my clothes but I still have stuff I need to go by, makeup, toothpaste, etc etc, travel size stuff pretty much. I'm super excited though because I have never been and I have never seen an ocean before so that should be nice. I'm gonna try not to be too bad on my vacation but I just can't wait to get away from everyone and everything. I'm gonna miss my little baby though..my puppy! She is a year old but still the size of a puppy! But I will keep this updated during my trip probably and post some decent pics. lol. Talk to you all soon!

Hey everyone, so I added new pics lastnight. I'm officially 53 lbs..still waiting on those 2 lbs to get me under 400. My weight has been jumpy lately Im down 5lbs one day then up 3 the next.  I have completely fell off the wagon and spring break is in a week. I've accepted the fact that I'm going to be huge while walking on the beach. I snore super loud..lol and we are staying at my friend's families house. I was just thinking about this earlier. So I'm going to try some breathe right stips and nasal spray to see if those will help. I'm going to use them all this week so I can get used to them and find the right position. I haven't worked out in over a week..I feel so tired all the time. I think I have actually been getting too much sleep. I got some compliments at work the other day so that was nice. My friend Karen said I was glowing and then asked me if I was pregnant..this made me laugh because that isn't possible. But she said she could tell I have been losing weight but I just don't see it. Even in the pictures I posted lastnight I still look the same. My pants are getting huge but I think thats just because denim stretches so much. I went to the avenue today to buy some capris since I dont have any that fit and I had to buy a couple 32 but my jeans are 30s so I'm guessing its the material.. I really don't know. I had to order my bathing suit online since none of the plus size stores have them in stores..I really hope it fits if not I have will have to squeeze myself into the size 24 one that I have. I hope spring break doesn't completely blow because its going to be that TOM so I'm going to be uncomfortable the whole time. I don't know why I have been letting myself go. I just have no motivation. Hopefully on tuesday after my fill I will finally have restriction and get back on track. Everytime I have to go she can't find my port and ends up sticking me 20 times before she gives up and then schedules something for the following day under fluro. This girl I work with is on short term leave from getting the RNY..she has lost 52 lbs in a month..that is just crazy. I was shocked when she told me. I will see her tomorrow but she keeps saying how it was awful and how she would never do it again and that she regrets it...I just don't understand people sometimes. Its kinda like she was just getting it done to have it since insurance covered it. I'm thankful everyday for my band because it has been a life changing experiene. I have been finding myself being more comfortable about talking about my band with others. I was at work the other day and my friend Karen blurted out to everyone at the table I need to get that done..and they looked at her confused and she said the lapband...and was like what she had done..and it was 5 people just staring at me and they started to ask me all these questions. and it was interesting to find out that this one girl and her husband are in the middle of the whole process. So I was happy I was able to educate her about everything a little bit. I will try to keep this updated more...I'm still trying to find a photo program that can let me do side by side photo comparisons...I may post a thread on the board  to see what other people on here use...Well goodnight, my fellow OH members!

Today is my 3 month bandiversary! I love saying that...hehe. I am officially 50 lbs down and I'm loving it! I would do it over in a heart beat. I had a very good week. Work wasn't busy so I actually had energy to workout and focus on my eating habits. I'm finally back on track which is great. I still have no restriction so I was thinking if I'm doing this well without restriction then the pounds should shed off when I actually do have restriction..I go for my next fill on the 17th so I'm praying for my sweet spot or at least something. I'm hope my surgeon will give me one. She almost wouldn't give me one last visit because I had lost 8 lbs and this time around I have lost even more than that. I'm hoping I can just explain to my surgeon that I have pretty much been doing this on my own. Last visit she asked me if I could eat bread and once I said yes she immediately said I needed a fill then so hopefully she will ask again..
 
Yeah never fall for those free trials you see online. I ordered these Acai Berry Pills I was hoping to take them and maybe speed my metabolism a little bit...thinking I was getting a 14 day trial..haha 20 days later I have a $78.81 charge on my account. I was furious...I guess thats what I get for not reading the fine print, so I called and got $40 back which I'm okay with this. I usually try to not complain and call people because I'm a customer service rep so I know how it is when you are getting complaint after complaint so I try to not have to make those calls. Anywho I can't think of anything else right now and FYI...Acai Berry Pills don't work..lol. story of my life..