only me

Aug 12, 2013

I am not writing this for anyone but me, to get it off my chest.  I have lost 114 pounds but have not reached goal.  I thought I would try getting back into the dating scene again but I must have a sign on my back that says stupid.  The two that I was talking with turned out to be con men and only wanted money.  It seems nothing that I try comes out right.  I am not asking anything of them only to be loved and respected.  I don't want money, material things, or to be taken care of.  Why is it so hard to find someone even after losing weight?  Every time I put my heart out there it gets trampled on.  This has caused me to go into an eating frenzy of anything and everything I can shove in my mouth.  I think I have probably stretched out my stomach but at this point I really don't care anymore.  So with all these emotions churning around I give up, I quit, you win.

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