I was so afraid of the finality of the WLS other than the band that I was not capable of here why the band may not be the best option for me. So now 3 years later I will be having a revision. At this time I am pretty sure that revision will be to a sleeve, the need to be able to take NSAIDS. I am going to discuss further other treatment options with my surgeon and make sure he agrees with my decision, I plan to actually listen to him this time. Hopefully by the end of June I will be posting about my first week after surgery. 

Today has been interesting, today was a day were people started to really notice I have lost weight. I am not sure why today, if it is something I am wearing or what. It feels good to hear because looking at myself I dont see it. I see it on the scale but not in the mirror I am going to try and get some good new pictures to post soon!

I think I should get and award or rather a punishment for being the most indecisive patient. I started looking 4 years ago at the lap band and then lost over 100lbs on my own so I no longer qualified and was doing great! Then I gained 75 ish lbs back but it has been a lot harder to try and lose it this time. Weight loss surgery take 2 this time initially I wanted the lap band but was advised at my first surgeon office I was too LARGE for anything but the RNY. I wanted the sleeve after the session but the RNY ended up being encouraged so much I went for that route. I never fully felt comfortable, I was constantly stressed and just wanted to want it like I should. After talking to some people I realized I was not too LARGE for other options and decided to try for the sleeve as it was the most aggressive approach I feel comfortable with and got denied. A few lap band friends and a very positive new surgeon advised that I could in fact be successful with the realize band. So as I sit here writing this I am sipping on my strawberry unjury mixed with crystal light lemonade and feel at peace and comfortable with where I am an what I am doing for the first time in months. I think this peace alone and the journey to get here is going to make this process much better for me than if I would have just gone straight here.

I did not realize that it would feel this absolutely amazing to have a DATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thats right me after 3 years of research and a year of being serious trying to get this done I am having surgery Dec 22...... Next New Years is going to be AWESOME!  I will not be fat another year. I am so excited I don't even have words to express it.