Bicycling 3 1/2 months Post OP // Rambling Thoughts

Jan 21, 2010

The first ride of the week is easy to say the least.  With that said the second and third day of riding is a bitch.  I don't have the reserves that I use to have, and recovery after a long ride is allot scary.   I am not sure how to compensate for this yet.  Today I went for a 20 mile bike ride and drank a protein shake before I left.  I took water and healthy balance apple juice.  After the ride I drank another protein shake and this helped out allot.  If I go any farther than 20 miles I am going to have to figure out some type of food or protein to take with me.  Because at the end of the ride today I was really hungry and shaking just slightly.  I rode 20.20 miles (with head wind) today in 1 hour 29 minutes with an average speed of 13.5 mph.  I was not racing the clock, I was just out seeing how far and how many consecutive days I can tolerate riding.  Right now it is 20 miles a day for 3 days then one rest day.  On the rest day I do the elliptical machine.  I still try to walk the 2 miles a day.  I want to work in u sing the big rubber ball to do crunches and push ups on.  I also need to add a good stretching routine.

Food seems to be an issue in the sense that I have to lubricate all my food.  The Surgeon seems to indicate I will always have to do this.  I swear before the surgery he said I would be able to eat steak again, now he says no.  Frustrating to say the least.

I still would not recommend this surgery to anyone unless they where really fat and unhealthy.  I think the mental aspects of the surgery are greatly under appreciated.  I have some really good moment not even days, then at time I want to kill myself.  I don't think I will but the thought is there. Sorry about the rambling thoughts but one thought leads to another.  This surgery has brought out all my fears to the for front.  The pain, the thoughts, the I am changed forever, yes I even cry in the bathroom at times where no one can see me.  Hopefully I will get this under control soon.  The focus on exercising is helping allot with that.

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