Attitude Adjustment

Jan 09, 2010

Ok, so in general I am a positive person... However, as the reality of what life will be like after surgery (re: eating) hits me like a ton of bricks I am finding it difficult to be excited for the surgery.  At this point I view it as a neccessity.  Maybe this is because the doctors have been hammering in all the things that can go wrong and are not guarenting any weight loss... I know they have to do this so the do not get sued... but I think it has knocked me down a few pegs.

Ok, so after reading my first paragraph I think I gained some persepective and some insight into my current view point.  My old self- the one that got me so fat, is naturally the most concerned about what she will no longer be able to eat (food moarning).  From now on I am only focusing on all the things I will be able to do again, and for the first time after I shed this pesky 100 lbs!!   Sitting in plastic lawn chairs this summer!!!!  Crossing my legs!!!!  Ride horses again!!!  Get into a bathing suit,,,, ok this one may take some more courage than the others...

Alright, I am ready to get excited about protien drinks and powders   (Or I will just fake it for now)  

On a lighter note... I am finished all the pre-op testing and ready to have my insides rearranged!!!!   Jan. 22 HERE I COME!

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