50 pounds down

Feb 02, 2010

Wow.  I am 50 lbs down since this journey started.  I have never lost 50 lbs in my life.  This has not been that difficult.  I've been pretty good with the eating and working out.  I love OH.  I log in at least once daily.  I t helps remind me that I am not alone and this band does work.
Today, I actually felt lighter.  I was walking to my car today and just felt lighter.  I love feeling my clothes so lose on me.  I can almost see some of the old Darlene coming through.
Today I did some soul searching as to how I got 120 pounds over weight and what I had to do to finish losing this weight.  I have not had any alcohol since November 1, 2009.  I have never admitted it, even to myself, but I had (have)a drinking problem.  I drank to often and too much.  I was depressed and didn't want to go out with friends, so I drank alone at home.  I'm sure it contributed to my issues with depression.  I was depressed so I drank.  I was fat so I was depressed.  Just a vicious cycle.  I will have to deal with my lack of control in dealing with alcohol, food, my children, and my ex-husbands.  I can't make excuses any more.  I am taking responsibility for all my short comings.     

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