Having a rough week

May 05, 2010

I have lost my focus.  It's like I hit 199 and decided to sabotage myself.  I have been working out a lot, but I have been eating crap.   All of a sudden I have no self control.  What the hell is going on.  I'm going to start the plateau buster tomorrow.  I know my band is only a tool and I ultimately make the decision on what goes in my mouth, so why am I doing this again.
  I have a trip home planned for the end of the month.  Could this be anxiety over going home?  Maybe it's anxiety over selling my house or retiring?  I will work through this with lots of prayer and a lot of self reflection.  I walked five miles today all the while planning to refocus.  Then I stop at the store on the way home and bought M & Ms.  What?  Regroup Darlene.  Get your head in the game.  The amazing thing about my band is tomorrow can be a fresh start.  Tomorrow I will be starting the plateau buster diet.  I haven't plateaued.  I just need to clense and get back to the basic.  I actually just called my girlfriend over and purged my house of all the foods that might lead me astray (fruit, crackers, trail mix, cookies, and rice cakes).  I get 10 days of clean eating.

PLATEAU BUSTER

May 6,2010
Day 1:   2 scrambled eggs/cheese
               20 oz decaf coffe with splenda
                3/4 cup black bean soup
                4 oz grilled chix
                lettuce/tomato/red onion with fat free balsamic dressing
                20 oz sugar free hot choc
               6 bottles water
               4 bottles diet green tea    

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