Reflections on Weight Loss

Jan 01, 2013

Just a little over a year ago, I wrote about what I thought 2012 would be like for me.  I was experiencing a lot of stress at the time thinking how drastically my life would transform by having weight loss surgery, adopting a baby and potentially changing my job; three major life changes.

The weight loss journey has been a unique ride into a bizarre world where I am valued and found to be attractive by people around me.  While it was difficult physically, it was not any harder than what I had expected.  Mentally and emotionally, the journey has been surreal. I’m still not sure what to make of everything and I’m still trying to get used to this new life.

I was very anxious about my surgery.  I was worried about having medical complications and I was concerned about the impact the surgery would have on my life.  Fortunately, I had nothing to worry about.  The surgery and recovery went smoothly.  I was worried about standing out in a crowd or drawing attention to myself because of my dietary needs.  My anxiety was unfounded as I have discovered that I am no different than anyone else except that I eat less food.  I don’t mind telling waiters and fellow diners that I’ve had surgery and therefore am not able to eat large quantities of food. I am not ashamed of my surgery in the least.  I know I could not have lost this weight without the surgery.

Last year, I had a lot of new experiences with food and people.  My goal this year will be to take what I learned last year and apply it.  I still have 60 pounds I want to lose.  I need to focus on my recovery and weight loss once again like I did a year ago.  It is necessary for me to use what I learned about protein shakes, eating slowly, and making better food choices to take my journey to the next level.

I bought bicycles last year but did not use them very much.  After losing weight I was more active than I had ever been before.  I went on several walks and then there was that infamous kayaking trip.  It is very easy for me to revert back to my old sedentary habits; therefore, I need to make a conscious effort to continue to stay active in 2013.

Finally, this year I need to learn to become more comfortable in my own skin.  I need to learn the social skills required to make new friends and confidently talk to strangers. I think this has more to do with my self-esteem and confidence than anything else.

I don’t believe in making concrete New Year’s resolutions, but I think some lifestyle and behavioral changes are always a positive thing.  In a push to grow as an individual, I will make an effort to be more active; more social; and practice healthy eating behaviors.

As it is getting late, I will discuss the adoption and career at another time.

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