Finally Making That Step

Jan 18, 2010

I made the decision today to finally go ahead and schedule my consultation and psychiatric evaluation for February 3.  I hopefully plan on having the surgery in June of this year since I will paying for the surgery myself.

The interesting thing is that I felt really funny after I made the appointment.  I really couldn't pinpoint what I was feeling.  I think that it was the fact that I had finally made the decision to do this.  As long as I hadn't made the appointment or any definite decisions, I think it was easy not to face the fact that I am indeed overweight.  I now have to prepare myself to say goodbye to this person I have been for the last 10+ years.  To finally be able to let the pounds go will be like mourning a death. 

I was telling my cousin today how who I am inside is not who I look like on the outside.  I no longer have to accept that this weight is mine for the rest of my life.

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