Food hurts!

Nov 07, 2011

I am still struggling with getting food and water down and in! I hurt so bad and am so sick! I go into tmo for another endoscopy and hydration. I try to eat and food hurts so bad! Then I get sick and throw up. I am to a point where I am afraid to eat food! I am trying to go back to a liquid diet pretty much but, I still feel sick. Last month I had an endoscopy and they stretched things. I just have not recovered the way I would have liked from my surgery on Aug 17th. Things were going so good in the begining?! What is wrong with me? Why can't I do this? I am still loosing weight but, not in a good way. I am so ashamed that I cannot seem to get with the program? I feel like I am letting Dr. Mattar down and now I see him tmo?! I am just so tired all I do is sleep and hurt so bad? Nothing seems to go easy for me or right. I knew it was going to be work and an adjustement I just didn't know it would be like this? I just want to be able to eat and drink again. Not be afraid of food?! I pray the endoscopy tmo will help. I hope the ulcers are looking better since last month and not worse.  

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