Looking for some Help! Suggestions? Support?

Jul 14, 2012

I had my RNY surgery Aug 2011. I have lost almost 100lbs. I have another 50 lbs plus that needs to go. I have improved in a few health areas like no more insulin, blood pressure meds, diuretics etc..... I am still having some health problems BUT, since surgery I have had 5 endoscopies because I am having troubel with food staying down, going down, and food not hurting?! They have gone in a few times a stretched things and it helps a little. I still have trouble swallowing where food doesn't get stuck or food doesn't sit like in the middle of my chest in constant pain! I try to eat only a few bites. I chew, chew, chew. I stay away from liquid for about 45 min before and after. I am currently living on Isopures and greek yogurt. I have no apetite. I feel exhausted and hurt all the time. I just had last week hernia surgery because my apron I think pulled so much that it ripped open. I have had nothing but problems with constipation and then I live on dulcalx or stool softners and then end up living on the toilet or mopping up messes. This is not how I saw my life being? Food is a fear. I don't know what to eat? What to cook? I know all the things I cannot eat? What can I eat? I am sick and feel like I am dieing!? My husband says I look sick and that he should have talked me out of the surgery because he sees me in so much pain, vomiting, not eating, etc.... I need help and don't know what to do? I still do not drive so it is hard to get to support meetings. My family does not know about my having the surgery so, I have only my husband for support. I am looking for someone who might have some suggestions? Some time to help guide me? I am so sick and feel like I am dieing from not eating now? I am really afraid and getting depressed. This cannot be the way it is suppose to be for me. Can't be. Thanks for your time and consideration. Dawn

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