moodier than I expected...

Nov 08, 2010

Well, I had planned on writing an entry every day, and I have not made it a priority and now I am frustrated with myself. It goes back into the same pattern of putting everyone and everything before me. I need to take even 5 minutes a day and get this all down and out of my head.

I have done much better than I expected with this new lifestyle. I have made a lot of adjustments that are working for me. I do believe that this was the answer for me to get healthy, I believe that with all that I have.

I am getting frustrated by my 3 choices of food, though. I found myself "cheating" this weekend. Kevin made dinner and there was some shredded cheese out, and I just couldn't resist it. I had some, then more and then a bit more in my soup! It wasn't a lot, but still not on the approved list right now. I have had feelings of guilt about it, and then sometimes I am okay with it. I think I am going to be okay with it, and move on and choose not to get stuck in a guilt/shame cycle. I have always been a firm believer in moderation. I don't believe (unless it's for health reasons) that anything needs to be eliminated from your own personal menu. I know that me not eating cheese is only temporary, and I will be able to eat it again soon, I just really really missed it. That being said, if I knew had to moderate how much I ate, I would have.

I am also being very moody these days. I am wondering if it's a combo of PMS and being frustrated with menu. Whatever it is, I am not liking it so much. I have to figure out what's going on before I cause some permanent damage.

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