WHY DID THINGS GET TO WHERE I'M AT TODAY

Aug 21, 2011

 TODAY IS SUNDAY AUGUST 21ST 2011.RIGHT TODAY I SHOULD OF BEEN A DIFFERNT WOMAN.WITH A SMALLER BODY....I KNOW THAT A WOMAN IS NOT SUPPOSE TO GO AFTER A MAN. BUT MY MOTIVATION WERE BASED ON THE FACT THAT THIS WONDERFUL MAN WOULD COME IN MY LIFE AND SWIPE ME OFF MY FEET.....BECAUSE I LOOK DAMN GOOD.


TO ACCOMPLISH THIS I HAVE TO LOSE OVER A 100 LBS THERE WERE ONE MAN WHO I LIKE A LOT HE IS KIND. IF I'M HAVING A PROBLEM WITH HOW I FEEL AND HE DID SOMETHING TO UPSET ME.HE WANTS TO KNOW ABOUT IT.(HIS WORDS)I NEVER WANT YOU TO FEEL THAT I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU.(HIS WORDS)BECAUSE I DO.I WANT TO BE NOTICE WHEN I CROSS THE STREET. AND NOT WORRY SOMEONE IS MAKING ME RUN. BECAUSE I'M FAT.I WANT TO GO IN A DEPARTMENT STORE AND SEE ALL THE SEXY AND NICE CLOTHES THAT I JUST DREAMED ABOUT.I WANT TO GO TO A RESTAURANT AND NOT WORRY ABOUT THE BOOTH I SLIDE IN.IS GOING TO MAKE MY STOMACH BE THE MAIN COURSE.I WANT TO GO TO WORK WITH NO PAIN.TO JUST FEEL SO OUT OF BREATH.I HAVE TO STOP AT HE GATE TO GET TO THE STRENGTH AND  WISH I WAS BACK HOME IN BED.



ON AUGUST 22ND I'M STARTING THIS DIET AGAIN. I WANT WLG I DON'T CARE WHAT KIND.I JUST WANT TO KNOW WHAT IT REALLY FEEL LIKE TO BE A WOMAN.I WAS CHEATED OUT OF THE LIFE STYLE I WANTED WHEN I WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL.


THERE WAS A YOUNG BOY. WHO I WROTE A LETTER TOO.I KNOW HE LIKED ME A LITTLE BUT I DID NOT FIT IN.TO BE TAKEN TO THE PROM......I WENT BACK IN TIME 1973 I HAD A CRUSH ON HIM.HE WAS SWEET AND HE WROTE IN MY YEAR BOOK THAT WE WOULD ALWAYS BE FRIENDS.BEING 350 POUNDS IN HIGH SCHOOL WHAT BOY IN HIS RIGHT MIND WOULD ASK ME TO THE PROM. HE IS TODAY A VERY IMPORTANT MAN. A VICE PRESIDENT OF A COMPANY....IF I WAS 130LBS HE WOULD OF ASKED ME.

TOMORROW AUGUST 22ND 2011 I'M GETTING MY GROVE BACK. SO MY LIFE CAN BE A PROM FOR ME EVERYDAY. WITH THE HELP OF A TOOL......I'M ASKING GOD TO GIVE ME THAT TOOL. EVERYONE THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT.I WAS A LITTLE DOWN FRIDAY. I SAW MY BROTHER WHO IS SICK.AND THIS MIGHT BE THE LAST YEAR.AND ALSO MY MOTHER.BUT GOD.HAS THIS ONE.ALL I CAN DO IS GIVE THEM LOVE AND PRAY

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