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10-14-04

Well, another mos has come and gone and nothing new in my WLS journey. I am holding in the 170's...I feel like a NORMAL person, on the outside. But, inside, I am terrified everyday of gaining the weight back. I went out for dinner and clubbing with my friend, Michelle, last weekend. She went from 320 to 130. She looks amazing, we both commented on how we are scared to death of ever gaining again and we are so scared that that is what keeps us in check. 26 mos out, I can eat anything and everything. I eat deserts regularly (in moderation) and drink entirely too much wine. I am not the model WLS patient. But, I never signed up to be. I look at myself now, and I am proud of where I am and how far I have come. Yes, I wished I weighed 150 (my original goal), but, I am content in the 170s. I like the way my body looks although I am very self conscious about my scars from my LBL. I have met a man, who I am starting to have feelings for. He thinks I am beautiful and tells me so often. I never heard that when I was married from my husband. He often refers to me as "hot", it makes me giggle. He has seen the scars, he knows I had "something done", but, we haven't gone into it yet. He senses it is something serious. When I am ready to tell him, I think he will understand. I am taking this slow. My husband and I also agreed to file for divorce this week. I am glad b.c. I really want to move on with my life. In NY, you have to file for legal separation first (1yr wait) and then the divorce becomes final. Its uncontested, we are friends and its totally amicable. So, the divorce will be easy on paper. Well, I am off to walk the dog and to bed. I (honesty) happy. For the first time in a long time
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New York, NY
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06/23/2011
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May 17, 2002
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8-15-02 @ 305 lbs (5'5
7-6-04 @ goal 173 - down 132lbs & Lower Body Lift 5-11-04
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