heathercross
4-29-05
I dumped last night....first time in almost a yr and maybe the 2nd time ever since surgery. I ate chicken for dinner and a few hrs later, had maybe 1/4 of a pint of Atkins Peanut Butter Swirl. I got cramps so bad that I could barely walk, I was on the john for an hr and I was so nauseous, sweaty and shaky that I almost fell off the toilet and onto the floor. Will I ever learn. Funny thing (in retrospect), I have had a whole pint of this in one sitting before and even had a whole pint of B&J since surgery and never had a problem. 5-8-05 I think I am in love. I have been seeing Mick for almost 3 mos now, and I am so lucky. He is so handsome, smart, creative, REAL, funny, sensitive and everything I could ever ask for. How do I tell him about this surgery? How do I tell him that I used to be 300+ lbs? How do I tell him, that the girl he thinks is "so together" and "so strong" that I was a victim of food. You know what’s funny? He once said to me that "he likes that I like food"....in NYC, everything is about dining out, eating out, drinking out, its a HUGE part of who we are and what we do. Its impossible to avoid. So, naturally, Mick and I dine out a lot and go for drinks a lot. Even after this surgery, I still love food. I really do. I love Mexican, Indian, Thai, seafood, Italian, Greek, mediterian, french-morrocan ands American. Did I forget anything oh, yeah, I HATE SUSHI. I also love wine. I do love desert, but, that’s one indulgence I don't give into all that often. OK, back to Mick, how do I tell him? What do I tell him? When do I tell him? I kind of felt him out Friday night over Indian, see Mick used to be a vegetarian and we were talking about protein for some reason and how vegetarians have a hard time getting enough protein and I told him about a vegan friend of mine and how she had Gastric-Bypass and he was like "WOW, that’s drastic"....So, how do I tell him? Do I need to ever tell him?
