This is just a quickie

Nov 10, 2010

Want to document my fucked up brain.

First of all, I'm scared to death of my surgery coming up on Friday.  I hope and pray this is the last one until plastic surgery time.  Every time I think of it, I cry.  I'm being serious too.  So yeah, that sucks.

Haven't been able to take my antidepressants in a month...and since I have bi-polar and other assorted issues, I am fit to be tied.  I told my mom that she's gonna have to have me committed if I can't take my meds soon.  I put a call out to my med specialist and HOPEFULLY they'll either find a liquid replacement or an injection I can do myself.  Cuz the way I've been feeling is scary, at best.

A very intelligent woman on the forums told me some good info about strictures and stents and I'm going to take this info with me on Friday and hopefully be HEARD so we can remedy this problem once and for all.

Sure my weight is coming off like its supposed to, but at what cost.  I'm not entirely sure I'd recommend this surgery for anyone after everything I've been thru.  I'll tell ya what, If I can't even eat mashed potatoes on Thanksgiving, you can bet your sweet ass I am going to be in a horrible mood that day.

Ok, signing off before I say something damaging about ........hell who knows.  I'll update after Friday and hopefully have something decent to report.

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