More detail on my "mass"

Nov 20, 2009

I went to my PCP who was gracious enough to call the hospital and get an exact copy of my CT scan results.  This is what it said:

"There is an approximately 13.2 x 6.6 x 8.4 cm well defined, predominantly fat density mass with some soft tissue attenuations internally in the left hemipelvis projecting above the urinary bladder and anterior to the uterus.  Neoplastic processes such as liposarcoma versus teratoma should be considered.  Mesenteritis is another possible consideration."

Ok, so the one I don't want it to be is a liposarcoma, which is malignant.  A teratoma is like horrific things you see on Discovery Health which is almost like a calcified fetus...aka fetus in fetu.  It's a tumor with bones, hair, limbs, teeth, etc.  I would be kind of horrified if it was that.  It is possible though, I had a miscarriage that nobody supposedly ever located.  But, I just had a baby in February, you would think something like that would have shown up on the 10 ultrasounds I had during that pregnancy.... or would have been seen during my c-section!   It is pretty big, about 5 inches x 2.6 inches x 3.3 inches.  That's just crazy to think about something that big in me.

My question is... why now!  Why this pain all of a sudden since surgery #2?  I have no idea and it's a big mystery to all.  My PCP intially thought, 'Hmm, maybe they left a sponge inside me" or something, but then she read my CT scan results.  She was trying to be as reassuring as she possibly could, but I'm still very worried.  She told me her gut instinct didn't think it was anything cancerous.  Well, I hope so.   I have an appointment on the 24th of Nov with the gyn oncology doctor, and probably will have another surgery shortly thereafter to remove the mass.  Thank god, I can't take the pain anymore.  I now know why it felt like I had a UTI or bladder infection, the thing is sitting on my bladder so it hurts to pee.

In other news, I have reached a mini-milestone with my weight.  I'm now below my lowest weight since I was in the 8th or 9th grade.  That's been a long time now!  I weighed in a 213.5.  Only a little more until onederland for me, and I haven't seen that number since I was like 11 or 12.

I can now drink large volumes of water easier, so I get down my water super fast.  I don't know what changed in the last 2 weeks but I can take regular sized calcium pills now too.  I was nervous when trying the regular sized ones considering it was the petite ones that sent me for my 2nd surgery!  It goes ok though!  I drink a 20oz bottle of water in the morning, one in the afternoon, and one in the evening.  Works out well and it only takes me about 10 minutes to drink a bottle, so I don't dwell on water intake all day long now.  Yes, I gulp it.  It takes about 4 gulps per 20oz bottle.  I don't get that nausea anymore that used to happen when I drank too much.  Before it felt like all I was doing was drinking all day and no time for food.  I now feel just a little bit more normal now.

If I could just stop having problems with other things I think t would be so much happier!!  One thing after another it seems!

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