@#$%^ and more vulgarities!!!! Have to have surgery again!

Nov 05, 2009

OK I'm really angry.  I went to my one month post-op visit today, with a nagging abdominal pain, that was getting worse by the day.  Dr. Kole says it's purely coincidental, but he thinks my c-section incision from over 5 years ago (not even my new one from February!) has torn open and therefore I have an incisional hernia that I have to now have repaired, OPEN, next week.  What the hell am I ever going to get better.  This will be my 3rd surgery in one month.  Is it coincidental that it started hurting immediately after my last surgery?  Honestly, in my opinion, I hope he is right, but something tells me it's something else, or worse than he thinks it is.  He only felt the top of my abdomen and was like, "oh, you know what,  I do feel a hernia" but he did not feel the rest of my abdomen.  Some of my pain is lower down too.  I don't have a UTI or bladder infection, I was tested a couple days ago.  AHHHHHHHHHHHH!  I don't want to have this surgery next week, and then my pain still be there and say, "Oh, lets do an exploratory one" after that.  

"Officially" I'm down 25lbs, but my scales show closer to 30.  They admitted today that their scale is about 3lbs off there.  The curiousness inside me tends to think it's done that way on purpose, but who really knows!

I had salad for lunch today and it worked ok.  I ordered a half salad and only managed to eat 1/3 of it, so I have at least two meals left out of it.  It was a chef salad so it had plenty of meats, egg, and cheese on there and of course I ate that stuff first, and only had about 6 pieces of lettuce.   In other eating news, I've had a couple of stuck incidences, nothing i'm not used too, and probably my own fault for not chewing enough.  

Oh well, one day I will be better and healthier.  It just sucks that today was my first day back to the gym and walking a couple miles.  It was a painful walk, but I walked through the pain.  Now I have to be down again for a few more weeks.  Agh.

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