Waiting is Torture!

Jan 11, 2010

    I got word from the insurance gal at my surgeon's office last week (Thursday, to be exact) that everything was ready to be submitted for  insurance approval.  I was so excited!  I know that my insurance is usually pretty quick about responding, definitely within a week.  So of course, I thought they would immediately see the absolute need for my WLS surgery and stamp a big ol' APPROVED on my application the ABSOLUTE VERY MOMENT that it came across their desk.  This was so obvious to me that I was somewhat set back when I didn't hear from them on Friday.  I mean, that's almost 24 hours - who do they think they are????  Now today (Monday), I have been jumping on my phone whenever it rings because I am still CONVINCED that it won't take even a single minute for the insurance folks to recognize my need for WLS and reach for that APPROVED stamp. 

I guess I'm just anxious to begin this journey.  I am anxious to begin feeling like I am something other than a failure when it comes to weight loss efforts.  I know this tool of WLS will make it so much easier to have my efforts translate into actual and sustained weight loss, rather than feeling like I am spinning my wheels.  I want to BE THIN.  I want to BE HEALTHY.   I want to be able to look into the mirrow - just look into the mirror!! - and see my body without feeling ashamed.  I want to be proud of my body and have that pride translate into confidence, so that I am not hiding from the person I love the most - my husband - who THANK GOD has NO IDEA WHAT I LOOK LIKE NAKED. 

Okay.  I guess that's it for now.  It felt good getting that off my chest.

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