Been even longer.... new year 2013

Jan 11, 2013

So yeah...  I have been in bed, literally for six weeks now.  Multiple blood clots in BOTH legs,  Yeah, cancer can really play havoc even after recovery, so I will be on blood thinners the rest of my life.  

Don't have many friends that care these days.  I suppose it is just myself and my wife really.  Oh well...  anyway...  

In the hospital thanks to the clots I gained over 60 pounds in water weight.  All in my legs, it was pure hell...  most pain I ever felt in my life.  Thanks to water pills and a doctor who I usually have to lube up his ass to help him get his head out of it, I have managed somehow to get a little better.   

Medicare, thank God helped with some home nurses and physical therapy.  I appreciate all you hard working nurses out there, I really do.  The ones who care and really help, I appreciate it!!

Due to my own male faults and not setting limits in a friendship, I lost a good friend on here.  Lisa, where ever you are, I am sorry for my own manners.

Well, that is my "blog" to who ever reads it.  I might do more, I might not.  I don't know.  I don't even know if anyone reads them anymore.  i am doubting myself and my own weight loss adventure and truly need to get my ass back to the YMCA.  I NEED to start swimming again and I need to start painting again and writing and making guitars.  I find myself stuck in this void of depression, responsibility and excuses.

Tim S.

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