Karidian
I'm all ready, except for that whole paralyzing fear thing.
Jan 13, 2013
I have my meds, I have my food ready post surgery, I have my vitamins, protein powders and protein shakes. I have my before and after surgery checklists.
I'm ready. 2 more days. And boy am I a wreck.
I do not like the idea of being put out, let alone surgery and it's making me a little crazy. I thought I was past this point. I had therapy and I am going through with it. The fear though. it's flooded back to me big time in the past few days. Combined with some problems finding some of the vitamins and problems with a pill I can't crush, I've been on edge for days. I woke up this morning with a cold sore, my stress personified. I haven't had one in years.
I'm getting a handle on it though. I'm talking myself down. Chill. Read, listen to music. Just get on the ride and let it happen. I sort of want to hang out with some friends, but they all, and I mean, all, are either sick with the flu or have kids that have it, or cold. Germ Friends.
Hold on Mike, only two more days.
